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2010-08-06T13:07:00.002+08:00

back for the last post before i leave for my trip..

shall update abt a night out with Professor Albus Dumbledore..

someone ask to be name as tt..

hahahs so wish granted..

well Professor Albus Dumbledore is my veh long fren..

veh gd indeed..

can say we've been frens for lyk mayb 6 yrs?

or even longer..

hahahs dun quite rmb how long alr..

so long is veh long alr la..

hahahs =X

one night we started chatting online aft so long..

we had always been talking abt meeting up..

ever since i was doing my internship..

but we couldn't find time to meet up..

becos Professor Albus Dumbledore is a busy person..

hahas so it dragged on till the veh night we started chatting..

chit chat halfway..

Mr Professor suddenly came up with an idea to meet up..

to EAT ICE CREAM for SUPPER!!!

hahahs so random yet funny..

so we actually went out for supper at Holland V..

we went Haagen Daez..

and a sudden thgt strike us when we were glancing through the menu..

while looking..

we realised smth..

it felt lyk both of us once were there eating ice cream before..

but was it with the same person??

we din noe..

only to noe tt tt was abt 3 yrs ago..

so i went to look through the photos i had in my phone..

and showed Mr Professor Albus Dumbledore..

and THERE!!!!

we finally recalled that two of us was there for ice cream..

during late night for supper THAT 3 YRS AGO!!

hhahahs =X

wad a JOKE!!

but it's true..

and we started chatting abt everything..

the times we've not been talking..

until recently and how have life's been..

Professor Albus Dumbledore has always been my..

gd Fren, great Buddy..

is gd to always keep contact with someone u feel comfortable with..

anyway now i shall ask back...

PROFESSOR ALBUS DUMBLEDORE are u reading this?!!

hahhaas =X is my story interesting enough?!

HAHAHAHSHAHAHS!!! =X

okays i shall be leaving singapore in few hours time..

misses all my d-team / y-team frens..

also misses all the times out we spent tgt..

hope there's more outings coming up..

and if possible..

even if we all attend seperate schs and even when sch starts alr..

we still planned our time and meet out and enjoy again!!! =D

of cos we'll definately rmb our funny swee chye..

shall not miss-ed him out for our outings if possible..

although it's a short holiday tt i'm going back..

not to enjoy..

more of bringing things back for my aunt and grandma..

also hoping tt my aunt will faster recover soon..

she's been going in and out of hospital for almost a yr..

pray hard tt she's recovering soon aft all major operations..

2010-07-26T21:49:00.002+08:00

had a great outing with d-team ytd!!!

thanks loves for all the enjoyment..!! =D

went sentosa with d-team..

and thank god..

for showering us with gd weather..

everyone had a great time enjoying the whole aftn..

under the sunny yellow banana moment..

really bonded well with everyone of them..

definately hope this bonding..

will last forever..

AWESOME!! XD

guess everyone's lyk red lobsters now..

sun damn hot ytd..

and everyone was burnt..!! hahas =X

including me of cos..

ahahs esp celina..

poor gal.. dunno how many degree burnt she got..

day aft day of sunburn..

wonder if anyone will read my blog..

hahas =X

they shall always stay in my heart..

be the best of all that i've known since aft so long..

nv been so happy ever since dunno when..

nv had such big group outing..

really love them loads!!

hahas XD

abit too exaggerating..

but they're wonderful!!! =D

okays enough of all these..

gonna see these ppl soon again..

HAPPY!

as for swee chye..

hope u'll always rmb us aft enlistment..

and if got time do ask us out for outing and meetups okay?

hahas =D

events events events..

really brought me happiness..

more and more to come..

before sch starts!!

GREAT!! XD

2010-07-15T11:30:00.002+08:00

last week was working for an event under visa..

one whole week of work..

felt really bonded with the ppl i work with..

and for the first time..

it felt as though we had known each other for long..

really veh happy to noe them..

great partnership..

great frenship..

i guess all of us had loads of fun aft work everyday..

esp our last day..

we played our hearts out..

pool, arcade and sing k..

FUN to the MAX!! =D

anyway was working ytd..

and was supposedly to go for briefing for MBS event..

but becos ytd of the new menu photoshoot..

it dragged till so long..

tat i din have time for break..

and had to work and eat dinner at the same time..

hahahs for the first time i'm going work without break..

but nice ogl ppl came to find me during my closing time..

hahas suddenly felt so happy seeing them..

it felt as though my long lost frens had come to find me..

although visa deployment has come to an end..

i'll nv forget the moments we had tgt..

fun and happy.. =D

next event coming up will be at promontory MBS..

ppls if u're free do drop by the sat and sun okay?

although i still dunno wad the event is abt..

but juz drop by to find me there! =D

2010-06-21T22:01:00.002+08:00

hahas exactly aft one long month..

i'm back for more postings..

been working lately..

either at the restaurant or the event's company..

been tired out..

hmmm long hours of work..

alr so tired..

sometimes juz feel lyk falling sick anytime sooner..

well had been working for a soccer event under komoco 2 wks ago..

was really fun and happy for those whom won prizes..

great event! =d

*THUMBS UP*

den it was last friday..

where i had my band concert at VCH..

it was a successful concert and we did awesome! =D

well done everyone! XD

today i was working for a new event..

under VISA deployment for SYOG..

tiring but fun experience..

get to travel ard places..

although alot of talking need to be done..

overall it was awesome too! =D

another 3 more days of work this week..

looking forward to it! =D

okays pretty tired alr..

need to wake up early tmr morning too!

nites ppl =D

2010-05-21T23:22:00.003+08:00

okays today i'll be blogging abt 2 main things..

that has happen this 2 days..

first is about the NAVY open hse..

as you all noe the open hse is only open to public on 22 and 23rd..

but actually it's a 4 days thing..

first two days which is ytd and today..

are open to public servants (families of navy regulars) and schs..

and ytd was a day of nonsense..

i was an event helper for the navy open hse..

and everything was so in a mess..

guess the event management din really plan it well enough..

becos even the event leader din noe lyk what's going to happen next..

everything was a total waste of time..

and wad all the helpers there did was to wait... and wait..!!!

was a long story and a long day out..

din wanna explain further..

main thing is time for work supposed to be 8-6pm...

but started at lyk 7-7.30pm...!!

becos everything has no planning and cock ups here and there..

first to reach but last to go..

everyone was tired out yet have to wait the whole day..

hungry and shag was the only thing i can say..

and frustrated of wad the management treat us lyk..

but anyway today was a gd day..

becos i went for another event..

it's being the decora's ambassdor..!!

it's fun and gd knowledge for me..

and of course the best thing is gd MONEY!!! =)

i din come across knowing of such brand of paints exist..

DECORA is a company that specialise in using water based paints to do furnishing of the walls and tiles and many other things..

they provides tiles for companies and even household..

the best part of it was that this paints can actually form patterns..

and you can actually DIY IT!!!

why do i say so?!

becos of their paints..

they can make pretty prints and the best thing is..

it will look veh classy and different from others..

if anyone is interested in doing DIY for their own room wall..

can go online and search for DECORA!!

i think it's a veh unique and distinctive kind of decorations you can have to WOW ur frens! =)

okays enough of today...

tmr i'll be going back to work for NAVY open hse again..

so see you ppl there if you're visiting the open hse..

i've gtg soon..

need to wake up REAL early in the morning..!!

NITES =D

2010-05-02T22:20:00.002+08:00

fell sick recently..

had veh bad health...

serious flu and cough and fever..

wondering wad's happening to me..

hmmm not been updating for long..

din noe wad to update..

so din even come to my blog to check or anything..

been working part time now..

other than that..

juz slacking..

graduation day is fixed..

and it'll be on 26th May! =)

which means it's coming soon?!

hahas so fast 3 yrs of poly life has passed..

a new beginning has started..

NTU's letter has arrived and accepted me..

shld i continue to study at this stage..

or wait first..?

i'm still considering..

wan some high pay job..

lyk event's helper or smth..

if only i could be a model still..

lyk doing all those fashion show or smth..

tt will be great..

but where to find this kind of lobang..

if anyone out there got such lobang..

tell me okay?! =)

hope can get some deals =/

2010-03-02T21:01:00.002+08:00

happy! finally everything's over..

now is time to enjoy..

and yea..

going sentosa tmr! =D

fren's 21st bday..

big day for her..

guess it's gonna be fun! =))

my 21st bday..

i think i wanna spend it overseas..

mayb only..! hahahs =X

shall plan it myself..

and the way i wan it to be =D

now all i need is..

juz a car..

to drive myself out to chill at night..

and more money..

i wan to go overseas and enjoy..

but before all these..

i shall start planning wad i wanna do from now..

and not wasting my time enjoying too much..

and plan for years down the road..

wad i shld be pursuing and wad i wanna do alr..

thinking of all these..

really headache! =/

hahas..

nvm slowly think =)

2010-02-26T22:01:00.002+08:00

the thgt of you saying that sentence irks me..

i wanted to say enjoy urself..

in the end..

it perks me so much..

i rather u hate me..

and let me be the bad one..

seriously hate it..

and i dunno why u lyk it so much..

juz becos u have to accompany ur frens?

and that's where you can spend ur money on?

ARGH!!!

i serriously hate it..

and stop judging me juz becos i'm angry over it..

so shyt...

if u wan to say..

den say all u wan..

becos u sure have smth to say becos of all these..

ARGH!

2010-02-10T11:56:00.002+08:00

nobody understands me..

i hate this..

nvm it's time i shldnt bother anyone le..

i wanna leave..

i din slp whole nite.. couldnt get to get..

so wierd..

went home late..

becos i couldnt get a reply..

i guess it's my words that cause the trouble..

okay i wont talk anymore..

so not in the mood.. =(

2010-02-09T22:35:00.002+08:00

hmmm i wanna leave s'pore..

why is it always turn out to be so saddening..

i kind of dun lyk singapore anymore..

but i dunno where i wan to go..

hmmm vexed.. =/

hate this feeling here..

always the same feeling..

argh... hais =(

it's coming to an end soon..

3 more days to end of sch..

and 3 more weeks to end of exam..

and tt's it..

i'll be graduating..

but what to do aft that?

hmmm i really dunno =/

2010-02-01T23:41:00.002+08:00

a day i will and shall nv forget..

a situation where thousand of needles pierce through my heart..

once again..

i felt the pain and anger in me..

i couldnt express..

everytime i tried to say smth..

i couldnt even finish my sentence..

whenever i tried to say smth..

it's always being interrupted..

there the argue starts..

a choice to say or not to say..

both is not on my side and not my say..

even if i say i get fired back..

den when i choose not to say..

and shut my mouth..

same things happen to me again..

so mayb i shldnt even talk abt it or mention abt it..

becos you wont hear me out..

i was angry and veh angry indeed..

but what can i do?

all i could say is i wont find a prob to mention to u anymore..

i get no listener..

even if i say..

this will accumulate all the probs again..

so it's back to square one..

and i simply hate it...

i've got so much to say..

but i dun wish to say it out anymore..

becos in turn..

when things turn sour..

i'm the one whom's being hurt again..

~juz feeling so hurt and heartbroken for millions of times~

i'll nv be the old me..

i'll change myself..

since i'm not being treasured nor treated nicely..

den i wont treat ppl nicely anymore..

unless i learn how to treat myself better..

and i'm going to be selfish..

on certain things..

be it whether u lyk it a not..

i dun care..

if u cant accept it..

den tt's it..

nth more to say..

hatred.. anger.. disappointment.. heartbroken=((((

2010-01-17T00:19:00.002+08:00

projects?! homework?! deadline?! o.O?!

so bored =/

so many things to do..

why are my wknds so bored?

when are all these going to be done?!

so sian nth to do..

where shld i even begin or continue from?!

where are you? you? and you?

hais it's so irritating~

why arent u always free at all?

i only wish things were made easier..

leaving me alone at home so bored..

and my G.M. can be more hardworking so they can help me..

this feelings juz sucks to the max..

even go out..

deadline's on its way..

also cant msg..

but until now nth's done..

time passes so slowly..

nobody's doing their job in the proj..

looking at the phone lyk an idiot..

complain complain complain..

only to receive it when u're free..

i'll only complain it here for myself to feel better..

got kinda bored of it alr..

thanks bloggie! =D

feel so alone..

love u so much! muacks<3

maybe i should be alone.. =/

i juz wanted more time for everything..

i hate this kind of feeling..

i juz wish words were more trust-able..

makes me break down everytime..

wishing i was place more impt and being paid more attention to.. =/

every single day every single time..

time to slp den..

bored~

enough of complains. Nites. =(

*hint:

reading not in sequence but between the lines..

if u noe wad i meant..

u'll understand what i'm saying =/

2010-01-13T20:31:00.003+08:00

sch's project's really going crazy..

and becos of that..

i'm going crazy too..

ARGH! @.@!

hmmm hahas juz wish i had more time..

anyway here's a deal for everyone..

if you would lyk to have some pineapple tarts for CNY..

my mum is selling these pineapple tarts!

2 choices for u to choose:-

1) 35 tarts for $17

2) 60 tarts for $29

do check out if u wan! =)

2010-01-09T15:00:00.002+08:00

hmmm my day ytd was a bad day..

hated ytd so much..

argh =/

eventually i fell sick..

was waiting for time to pass quickly in sch..

so i can leave..

however i juz simply got angry aft tt..

wasted my time..

i shld have left earlier..

it was drizzling by 5..

decided to juz walk through blk 5..

to bus stop..

dun bother abt the drizzle..

before i left..

i had serious throat pain..

i guess it's mild sore throat..

was not feeling well..

decided to juz go for band..

when it's time for band..

throat got worst..

den i had no voice at all..

suddenly feel so ill that i broke down.. =/

develop slight fever aft tt..

feeling so unwell yet mood so not gd too..

juz hated it so much..

TP's coming..

wad should i do?

where to get money man..

stupid part time job gave me so little work this month..

lyk only one day..

anyone got good lobangs to introduce?

pls tell me.. thanks! =D

2010-01-03T11:20:00.003+08:00

some stories are not meant to be heard..
but since it's over long ago..
dun mind knowing it..
after all it doesnt make a difference now..
got to noe some things ytd night..
from a person i've nv met before..
but heard quite a few times before..
during my internship..

be it is the truth or not..
i dun wan to bother alr..
it's good to noe anyway..
wadeva it is i dun wanna talk abt..
=D

school's starting tmr..
it's the last term before i end my poly life..
time really flies..
in another 1 month plus..
it's going to be exam..
and tt will determine the end of my poly life..
tmr is my ct's results..
so sian..
i dun wan to take back though..
guess results is gonna be oh my tian..
hahas which is bad..
better not get back will be gd =/

okays have to chiong my projects..
band concert's coming..
have to go for practice alr..
see ya =)

2010-01-02T01:07:00.003+08:00

GOODBYE 2009! WELCOME 2010! =D

it's a new year alr..
last day of the year..
had bowling sessions..
den trying to pick up a new skill..
but i guess i was a slow student right?
hahas majiong was not my type i guess..
after so many rounds..
i understand nth..
LOLS! =D

saved cabby fare last night..
so happy cos i need money to learn driving..
took the last few trains back home..
den slowly walk home from mrt station..
sometimes i really wish i had the money..
to buy a car..
den out at night wont be a problem..
but of cos..
before getting a car..
i muz have a license and a job..
license to be legal to drive and job to pay installment of the car..
hahas =X

may tt be a new resolution to look forward to this yr..
and i'm so lame to realise the date is a mirror image of the year..
take a look..
01022010
hahas mmddyyyy.. =X
okays it's time to slp..
good night and have fun people~
nitex.. =D

ps. it's XXX days long..
a day tt i guess i wont easily forget for now..
some things are juz meant to be kept at heart..
and always bring it back..
to give urself a day of happiness..
a day to make urself smile of wad had happen..
and where it happen with whom..
it shall always be kept in my heart..
a place where it can always linger ard freely.. =D

2009-12-31T12:11:00.002+08:00

today is the last day of the month..
also the last day of the year..
it's time to go celebrate..
=)

although the plan today isnt tt great..
not much of celebration..
but still at least there's a plan to celebrate..
it's better than staying home alone..
celebrating and countdown alone..

new year new wishes..
i dun have much wishes..
juz hoping to have a better new yr than this yr..
wont wan to say much..
juz pretty much dun lyk this yr..
becos loads of unhappiness..
and loads of hwk to do..
=/

a few more months and i'm going to graduate soon..
wad shld i do? hmmm o.O?
shld i go work first or continue to study uni?
if i work first..
where shld i go and apply for a job?
if i study first..
which uni, which course and where to get the money?
seriously i dunno wad to do..
need some help with decision here..
anyone can give me some suggestions?
thanks so much =)

pretty tight timetable..
tight projects and tight homeworks..
i only wish someone could help me share the load..
and help me with my hwk..
but tt's impossible..
if there's someone to do all this for me..
den i shldnt be the one to graduate..
cos it will show tt i've done nth..
hahas shall chiong to the end now..
rush all my projects and hwk..
and do well for my exams in 2 months time =)

lastly,
wishing everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR in ADVANCE!! =D
enjoy ur last day of the year 2009!

2009-12-18T21:45:00.002+08:00

it's the end of common test..

finally had a breather..

can take a short break..

but it also mean smth else..

the start of another hectic lifestyle..

haven got much rest yet..

another load of projects to complete before sch reopens..

this is so shyt..

is yr 3 always so tiring..

and so no life?

seriously..

lecturers we are humans too..

give us a break and stop rushing us with endless projs..

hate projects so suddenly..

piles and piles of projects to do..

let me count exactly how many..

2 AEIS, AL, ANCS, HUMCOM, WISP..

and fyp..

isnt that crazy?!

lecturers are all crazy..

not in the mood to start any of it yet..

so i'm going to leave it hanging there for now..

i'm a bad and lazy gal..

but i juz wan to have my break..

i aint wrong at all. =)

take kaiires peeps..

it's going to be busy from now till end of sem..

which will be next yr..

few more months..

and i'm going to endure this few months..

till i graduate..

den it will be enjoyment for me..

TP's coming..

really wish me gd luck man..

i wan to pass it..

cos i aint no much money..

been using all my working money to pay..

dun wanna waste another few hunderds to retake it..

*PRAY PRAY!*

2009-12-02T23:39:00.002+08:00

been reading smth tt makes me feel lyk wanna update..
was reading some old emails tt i've save..
also thinking of some old times..
spent wisely with love ones and frens..
made me felt kinda emo..
not being able to treasure the times den..
i suddenly felt so upset..
mayb i shldnt keep this past memories..
but i couldnt bear to delete too..

from wad i learnt from HumComm today..
forgiveness this word actually weighs alot..
it takes alot of courage and thinking in the mind to do it..
forgiveness - is a choice to doing it or not..
and quoting from one of my classmate's words..
"forgiving someone is simple but to forget wad had happen is hard"..
i trully believe in this sentence becos i'm one who cant do it..
from past experiences..
i've tried but i've always nv succeed in doing so..
i promise myself not to be reminded of things..
but i always tend to bring it up when smth happens..
i'm a failure i guess.. =/

wad exactly is supposed to be retained in our mind? o.O?
is it the memories of the past or the time spend with someone?
or is it the words once told to one another?
everyone has different defination i guess..
hmmm guess avpd's really stressing me up..
and ct is coming on the way in 2 week's time..
and i'm totally lost to noe wad to do next..
only to think back and thgt of all these..

ppl dun wry i'll be fine..
tmr's 1st review..
and soon proj is going to be dued..
by den everything will be a chaos..
i guess i better start doing smth now..
else i'll be suffering deep down inside myself..
=/
nites better go slp early..

2009-11-28T00:53:00.002+08:00

it's been a long time since i last updated my blog..
memories of the past been flashing back recently..
wondering where do i exactly stand..
guess i wasnt tt impt at all?
tt's why i was taken for granted?
seriously been thinking alot..
=/

anyway been really stressed out i guess..
broke down a few times this week..
so many things to be done..
and thinking of alot of things..
so easy to say but so hard to do and control..
wad's the purpose in life exactly..
ppl's been always saying..
"live to the fullest and enjoy till the best..
do the best u can to achieve wad u wan.."
is tt always true? o.O?

done with one report ytd..
there's still more to go..
ct's on the way..
3 more weeks to meet the death god..
better start studying real soon..
till today..
i hadnt been concentrating in class at all..
so i dunno wad had exactly been taught for the past 6 weeks..
needa do some catch up and self study soon..
better start early..
modules are hard this sem..

actually i think there's more to update..
but i'm lazy..
and too many things happening..
so i guess i juz dun wanna say out le..
when i got the time..
i shall update again.. =/

2009-11-05T20:52:00.002+08:00

today i had a real bad day..
i guess my mood totally felt the worst..
i was not in the mood at all today..
morning i was alr kinda moody..
den during project..
probs aroused..
i din noe how to handle my part..
i guess out of the 3 person in my grp..
my part was the worst and toughest part..

i had probs on how to start..
keep brain storming..
but no results cameout..
asked OTS..
he was juz plainly explaining the surface of the proj..
he's of no help at all..
ask him? = dun ask better. =/
when we needed him..
he's always missing in action..
wad kind of supervisor is tt..
only he can find us..
we will nv be able to locate him..
damn shyt..
afterall i still dunno where to start from..
i'm totally clueless..
felt so useless..
=(

aft sch..
was driving lesson..
mood was alr damn down damn moody..
totally screw up my driving today..
instructor keeps pin pointing on me..
made me feel damn lousy..
damn dun feel lyk learning to drive anymore..
guess everything affects my mood so badly..
the past few lessons i felt damn demoralised..
kind of dun dare to drive anymore..

wad's wrong with today..
i'm so moody..
DAMN!! =/

2009-10-30T09:22:00.002+08:00

having AL lessons now.
but the contents are really dry..
however the teacher's nice..
he did a lot of hwk..
to convert the text into ppt.
which makes the contents really brief..
at least it makes the lesson not so BORING.
i can say.

well been a busy week i guess?
forgotten wad i've done for the whole week alr.
had some days tt i joined the gals..
for L4D sessions..
although i din quite noe how to play the game..
but i'm still on the verge of learning how it works..
kind of fun but yet addictive..
it's a game when u stressed out urself..
and for u to relief all the stress u've been suffering..
project's getting on to the 2nd stage alr..
and i'm still not done with my first part..
this is saddening..

next week is the deadline..
for the first part of the project..
reports to be handed in.
i'm only lyk at the beginning of the report..
i'm going to suffer soon..
if my pace is kept at this speed..
time to buck up jermayne..

4 hrs later for project..
have to faster finish wad i have left to do with..
had to discuss on the new project too..
project 2 have to have sufficient time to work on..
else time is gonna pass by lyk no one's business..
and then there would be no time to finish everything.
i juz dun wish tt day to come at all.

time to listen in lesson..
but i'm gonna fb too. =X

2009-10-23T23:06:00.002+08:00

i've decided to cancel the idea of diary..
cos i'm far too lazy to write..
and too lazy to design a new blog skin..
mayb it's fated..
to not write it out..
some things are meant not to be told i guess..
mayb all these while..
it's been telling me this.
and i only got to noe it now..
at least i hope it's not too late..

i've been feeling wierd recently..
seems lyk smth's been taken away from me..
smth's been missing recently..
but i couldnt explain why i had this feeling..
it's juz in me..
i wish i knew wad's wrong with me..

sch's started..
explanation of assignments n projects piling up..
when am i going to get started?
oh my tian..
i need to get myself to start on things man..
else i'll be struggling damn hard for this sem..
as i have 7 freaking modules including fyp to do..
pioneer batches always suffer..
kind of bad..
test today was bad..
i think i'll score damn low..
nvm it's over..

time to slp..
work tmr..
at least for now..
work keeps me away from thinking..
get me distracted..
think tt's the best way to numb myself..
from thinking so much..

nites =/

2009-10-19T21:53:00.003+08:00

this is my flute and my polaroid camera..
bday present?
ya from my mum..
it was bought on sat (17th)..
when i went shopping with her..
she wanted to celebrate my bday early for me..
cos she noe i wont be free on my bday..
bought alot other stuffs too..
clothes and shoes..
den we went to shangri-la hotel to had dinner..
buffet to be exact..

results of the polaroid camera..
were rather great..
got to see jane and pearl at shangri-la..
they are having their attachment there..
it's nice to catch up with them..
so long din see them alr..
looks lyk they're doing well..
happy for them..

okays sch's started..
i really wish i could start studyinig and do my proj..
wad's bothering me..
damn..

needed some time =/
give me a few months..
i needed more time.

2009-10-19T12:21:00.002+08:00

i'm starting to write my own journal..
juz a diary..
a world to my own..
i needed no comments..
i juz needed a world of my own..
it was created..
i became someone whom i dun trust anymore..
i'll nv gonna put trust on someone..
this time..
for now and for future..
it's juz so shyt..
hated..

i was given death sentence..
and i feel the urge to get back..
but it's okay..
things werent supposed to say here..
i'll get back to diaries..
where the young days i used to have..
juz no one could actually see it..
i think i'm better off lyk tt..

dun ask me anything..
tat's all

2009-10-16T20:17:00.002+08:00

today's driving was great..
finally going to get the hang of the pedals..
hope by 2 weeks time..
i still rmb how to drive..
hahahs WOOPS!! =X

i wanna faster learn parking..
haha juz simply cant wait..
still stalling the car..
but cant be blame..
it's lyk only my 4th? 5th? lessons?
ahahhas give me time and i'll sure master it..
soon i'll get the hang of everything..
today my instructor juz left me alone in the circuit..
hahas keep going on S course and crank course..
but fun..
i juz drive my own..
nobody to keep correcting me..
lucky i din mount any curb..
tt's my best achievement in the course..

time flies..
so fast one week pass le..
and this would mean..
everybody's starting soon next week..
crowded bus..
almost to a never ending jammed..
have to wake up earlier..
to avoid jam n get to sch on time..
however i hate mornings..
some more all my lessons mainly start at 8..
one day 9..
damn...!
tt's a bad timetable..
and hectic semester i have..
loads of modules to take..
project alone can kill me le..

now shall go continue my series marathon..
give myself a break from everything..
den start my project i guess?
hahah... =X
PS. MAYBE TMR!!
take kaiires =)

2009-10-15T23:12:00.002+08:00

sch started for me..
well nothing's pretty interesting..
juz tt i've been flying the flight simulator..
haven really started on my project yet..
i'm pretty gonna get screwed up..
for not being to complete my task..
flight simulator's fun..
but task was challenging..
it wasnt an easy thing to do..

been having some troubles getting to slp..
been thinking abt some stuffs..
it's time i guess it shld be thrown away..
all the things tt i've been thinking..
forget it..
dun ask me wad's it..
i dun wanna say a single thing..
pretty simple..
i'll nv get involved again..
i PROMISED!
so get lost if u think u're trying to make up to me..
i shldnt even exist in tt place before..
i guess now i noe it's a wrong choice..
bad apple..

i'll hate it for life..
all thanks to u..

my life is screwed cos of everything now..
and now i've planned a new route..
which i'm definately going to pursue it..
my life would be better off flying ard..
tt's gonna fulfil my dream and nv gonna see such stuffs again..
nv ever..
tt's wad i've planned aft i graduate..
no one can stop me..
not even anyone impt in my life..

dun ask me abt this post..
where i start..
i'll finish off here..
full stop..
nitex

2009-10-02T18:07:00.002+08:00

it's the time of the hols again..
settling off for chalet.
it's des bday..
happy BIRTHDAY to him! =D

anyway driving really make me so pissed..
one more chance..
i'm giving this stupid company..
one last chance..
if the next time they are going to cock up my schedule again..
den sorry..
i'll nv gonna patronize u anymore..
neither will i bring my frens to u..
damn shyt..
totally spoil my mood twice for driving..
one is before i even started..
second is the stupid asshole instructor tt gave me face..
argh damn pissed..
dunno wad the hell is with this company..

shld not be angry anymore..
although i'm still thinking abt it..
mum juz ask abt it..
tt's why i suddenly thgt of it..
and feel so angry..

anyway sch's starting real soon..
i guess sch's gonna start on the 12oct for me?
haha not quite sure though..
no latest news yet..
cos they're simply so slow..

suppose i would say i was happily waiting to go down..
but wait until i abit xiao dulan alr..
plus with the noisy kids at my hse..
DAMN IRRITATED!!!
seriously screaming at the top of my voice..
lyk some crazy women..
argh juz cant take it..
spoil my mood today again..
wad a two day straight bad day..
DAMN! ARGH.

okays i shld leave..
back on sunday.
CYA

2009-09-24T21:52:00.002+08:00

ohh i'm back for one week alr..
ipoh was great..
water games have left burns for me..
haha starting from the first day itself..
haha =X

currently i'm in the state of reborn-ing..
haha which means..
i'm peeling lyk a snake..
LOLS! =X
truly enjoyed myself during the trip..
although i went with mostly yr 1s and 2s..
if u wanna get a look at some photos..
photos are uploaded on my facebook..
and videos on white water rafting are there too..
as i brought my water proof cam there =D

i'm starting to miss the trip alr..
although it's juz a 5 day trip..
hmmm when is my own overseas trip? =/

2009-09-13T19:38:00.000+08:00

take kaiires people..
i'll be back on thursday! =D

off to ipoh! =)

2009-09-08T23:58:00.002+08:00

back for lil post.
last sunday.
went for a charity run at padang.
it was a 5km run.
it's been so long tt i've actually ran.
so it was a rather challenging one for me though.
hahas =X
but when i finish it.
i feel it was actually alright..
mayb it was my wound tat aches..
tt's why when i ran..
it feels a lil cramp ard my tummy area.

okays den.
last week was rather a great wknd spend..
was out think on thurs.
den saw melvin at ps area.
was rather shocked to see him..
as it's been so long i've met him and actually talk..
manage to catch up a lil.
but have to carry on walking with my frens..
so only chat for awhile.
it's nice to suddenly meet up with ppl during sec sch times.

been working for 2 consecutive days this week.
legs totally wear out..
and wit loads of blisters..
oh my tian..
i guess is the shoes tt are making my legs so cui.
my stupid feet.
cui feet..
dunno why lyk tt..
hais..

it's time to rest..
tired =/

2009-09-05T14:50:00.002+08:00

ohh suddenly it became so happening..

LOLS! =D

i'm so glad tt it happen..
hahas.
juz a sudden thgt mayb i shld give it a look..
and guess wad I SAW..
some stupid arse complaining..
COOL~

was i even talking abt you?
only you could say tt?
LOLS SO STUPID!

i have way better more things to care and talk abt..
so i guess somebody juz confess tt my blog was read UNINTENTIONALLY?!
look at some stupid idiot looking at my blog now..
woops! =X
i din even bother.. LOLS!
congrats to u man.. =D

2009-08-28T15:01:00.002+08:00

chanced upon reading someone's blog.
let's name the person as A yea?
here A goes saying..

"im nv angry at the person

just the situation..."

LOLS!
i think tat's a stupid sentence A has made..
for tt i think it's a stupid lie tt A has said..
being known A's character..
i think tat's juz a fake comment being said.

wad a hypocrite.
i've nv believe wad A was trying to say.
for all A has done even up till this day.
faker..

oh well.
cant be bothered.
life's pretty enjoyable recently.
had been hanging out recently..
although dunno where to go.
but time spent is more valuable.

been blog hopping.
reading a few new blogs recently..
pretty interesting updates..
no further comments abt it.

anyway wishing new batch of ppl going ALD..
GOOD LUCK and Have FUN! =D
guess u guys will be bored to death there.
unless u noes how to mingle and spent time wisely.
but the truth is.
ITS PRETTY BORING AND U HAVE NO CHOICE.
only to count down by seconds..
till the end of the day..
and till the end of internship.
take kaiires ~

2009-08-25T12:54:00.003+08:00

back for more post..
i've juz realised..
it's been quite sometime i haven been updating..
hahas guess i was too lazy..

anyway internship's over..
presentation was great and it's finally over too..
been a week past..
holidays started a week ago..
it's time for me to enjoy now..
endless times of going out and enjoy with frens..
this feeling is too great..
if she juz dun bother abt me..

i miss the life of keep going out..
going out till late night also dun feel lyk going home..
wondering when will this day come..
when i need not report to her abt my being..
and juz go out whenever i feel lyk it..
damn!

i'm starting to miss the people at PLAB..
oh my tian..
suddenly feel a part of me was missing..
mayb due to going there for quite some time already..
now suddenly need not go already..
felt as if smth was missing..
=/

recently been out catching alot of movies..
and spending time slacking and chatting..
it's great time spent..
i miss this old times i used to have..
and now recently i'm getting back this life..
and i really wan them so much..
but there's always restriction..
why cant she juz dun bother..
if she could juz let me do wad i wan..
i'll be damn delighted and no worries anymore..
=)

2009-08-10T21:48:00.002+08:00

i will rmb the date today..
the things that happen today..
simple words to express..
juz one word to express..
HATE!!

the day today 10th of August..
i'll nv forget..
thanks so much...
it's the worst day of my life...

2009-08-09T01:50:00.001+08:00

i finally got wad i wanted..
but things turn wrong on the other side of my life..
this seriously sucks..
i hate this..
why things turned out to be lyk this..?!

things said ytd really made me pissed..
and words being expressed describing me..
it juz sucks..
for a second i thgt..
wad's this mean?

those words really left a mark in me.
a mark so unbearable tt reminds me every second.
reminds me of wad happen at tt veh moment.
all the words tt was told to me tt veh moment.
it's a thousand blades through my body.

things changed..
attitude changed..
time has changed everything..
everything has changed..
i guess i shldnt say much anymore..

ppl juz dun ask me wad happen..
keep quiet and let me rant.
thanks

2009-08-05T22:09:00.004+08:00

ohh i'm back for more postings..
last week juz submitted my draft copy of final report..
wonder how is it already.
still had no comments from my LO yet.
hope it's okay..
next week will be my last week at PLAB.
ohh time really flies..
been there almost going to 5 months already..
and internship is coming to an end.
happy happy! =)

happy for 2 reasons!
1ST : i met nice people there.
whom kept my INT rather happening and happy..
at least time spent there is rather occupied..
with people to talk to (referring to NSF)..
and this makes time pass faster..
and of course becos of them..
they made up my new group of frens =)

2ND: i no longer need to travel so far..
and no longer need to wake up so early..
to travel to there..
imagine every 5 day work week..
you have to wake up at 6?
and juz by travelling there..
it takes abt 1 and half hour or more..
to juz get to work..
it's damn tiring..
but fruitful trip i think..
at least i got to noe new ppl there..
and learnt new things.
having to work with RSAF officers =)

okays this is one happy thing to share..
hahas XDDDDD
secondly, the next happy thing is..
i've passed my FTT!

happy happy..
and now finally i can start to learn driving le..
although i shld have started quite awhile ago..
hahas but it's okay!
it's still not too late to start now =)
becos i'm going to have holiday in 1 more weeks time..
and it's a 2 MONTHS HOLIDAY!!!
so i have plenty of time to learn driving! =)

okays it's time to start preparing for my upcoming presentation..
and get my formal shoes soon..
else i'll be panicking when the day comes..
better start preparing early..
going to get it soon !!!!
real soon =)

ohh ohh!!

before i forgot..

i've gotten myself a new specs..

hahas imagine for the past 7 years..

since sec 1 i hadnt went to change my specs..

and the best thing is..
my degree still remains the same..

2009-08-01T03:59:00.002+08:00

dunno why..
but suddenly i've got the urge to blog..
i juz got to noe one of my gf..
is suffering in her relationship..
while talking to her..
i really could feel the pain in her..
the endurance limit has reached its maximum..
saw her crying so badly..
explaining things to me..
i really feel lyk crying out with her..
i dun wish to see her in such a situation..
=/

dunno why i juz got affected by her somehow..
but at the same time i was advicing her..
i hope she's okay now..
at least she stops weeping already..

from wad she's been telling me juz now..
i felt some things are so true..
somethings are juz so hard to predict..
firstly it started off with courtship..
as it goes by..
things get sweeter and sweeter..
and one gets to noe each other better..
and the lil things abt each other..
they juz love it..
den it went into relationship..
it was great when it first started off..
things went so smoothly that it seems so impossible..
den probs came by..
comparison of the past and now..
saying "u've changed! u're nv lyk before"..

i was juz wondering..
everybody had this turning point in life..
people changes as they grew older..
i dun understand why they always lyk to compare..
compare their past with current..
saying how different u were before..
why cant they juz accept the fact tat it's lyk this..
wad's so gd about comparing?
things wont get anywhere better..
when u keep repeating wad u wanna say..
only to get sick and tired of it..
and soon it loses its meaning and feelings..

den u'll start complaining abt the relationship..
seriously.. my gf out there..
if she happens to read this post..
i advice u..
i seriously think he's not ur prince charming..
and he shld juz get a life on his own..
and shldnt even be in ur life at all..
always threatening u and blaming u for nth..
and u silently accept it..
i really dun wish to see u suffer lyk this..
u deserve a better guy out there..
my heart aches as i saw u crying bitterly for him..
u treated him well and he treated u lyk wild flowers..
i felt sad for u..
and i seriously wish to help u scold him..
and shoot him abt all the sufferings u've been through..
he's juz an immature guy who thinks he's always right..
and defending himself for being such a petty guy..
*smack smack~~*

okays i shld be off to slp now..
pretty tired..
eyesd really closing..
and i'm going to chiong my final report tmr..

DEADLINE : MONDAY!!! =X
ohh my tians..... !!!!

2009-07-27T23:13:00.002+08:00

woo~
back for more postings..
been enjoying my late weekends recently..
going out for celebrations..
also plainly juz by slacking..
it was a great time spent though =)

i dun have such feelings for a veh long time alr..
now makes me yearn for more..
makes my feelings all come back..
feelings as in when i used to hang out late at night..
with frens.. wherever we can..
juz staying out throughout the night..
seriously i miss those old times i had..
recently been getting back tat kind of feeling..
i feel great about it..

fell sick a few days before..
but i'm getting well again already..
which is good..
also recently..
i've been having this veh bad ear infection..
make my ears damn itchy and swollen..
and it seems lyk it's getting worst each day..
i think it's time i shld visit the doc again..
for consultation again.. =((

counting from today..
3 more weeks.. exactly about 21 days left..
internship is coming to an end..
saying the truth..
i used to think that int to plab was boring..
and no fun at all..
but as time goes by..
from a place i dun wish to go everyday..
till a place i really get used to it already..
people there are really nice people..
i guess i'll miss them a lot when i leave there..
memories will be craved in my mind always =)

okays shall update more soon =)
take kaiires people! XD
*yawnzz*

2009-07-21T22:52:00.004+08:00

the more relax u are..
the further i will go..

the further i go..
the more i wont turn back..

dun blame me for making any decisions..
i had no freaking idea of wad's going on..
u always had this wierd tone..
tat makes me feel lyk u're scolding me..
sometimes i really couldnt take it..
but i kept cool..

people pardon me..
dun ask me anything abt this post..
juz let me do the talking..
and dun ask me abt it aft u read it..

i'm freaking tired alr..
i'm starting to dun understand everything anymore..
i'm losing control of things..
i dun understand anymore..
it's nv gonna be the same..
mayb it's time..
=/

i surrender..
it's actually so hard to understand a person..
i'm always in the wrong..
no matter for once i'm right..
it always seems tat i'm wrong..
no matter wad i do..
thanks people..
now i understand ur "sicko" intention..
thanks man..

2009-07-11T21:43:00.002+08:00

it's been quite a while i hadnt been blogging already..
now it's time i'm going to upload again..
let me recall wad had happen recently..
hmmms..

anyway i'm doing mask now..
hahahs =X
so bored till this stage..
cant really rmb wad had happen for the past week or so..
i feel so sian of life now..
i need some entertainment man..
it's lyk work.. home.. work.. home..
it's so boring..
all the people are busy..
but i'm so free..
hmmm even if i'm so free..
i feel so sian and bored..
why?
becos nobody to go out with..
everyone else is so busy with their life and projects..
i rather i'm also busy with things..
at least i noe wad to do with my weekly report..

okays i think today i'll change a way of writing my report already..
new start new things..
aiya i dunno wad to write le..
anyway last sat wad np's band concert..
i think it wasnt a great one though..
but anyway..
that's the first time i saw full house..
and people crashing into the concert..
cool~

aft which..
met up with yiyang, farah and lala..
went to cartel with them to look for "mother"..
chat a lil..
and had dinner there with them..
den also had the chance to see my old colleagues..
lyk zin, roy and skye..
miss working at cartel with my batch of people..
=//
wondering when is the time tat all of us could met and catch up old times..
miss them loads =//

okays gtg..
*chaos*

2009-06-24T22:49:00.002+08:00

hmmm this post..
i'm refering to some people that i noe..
dunno why..
i juz seems to stand those people whom ps me..
talk halfway den dunno die to where..
also nv say..
damn it..
i think i shldn't bother abt these people anymore..
juz filter them out of my life..
i shldnt treat them as frens too..
maybe i shld do that..
den i wont get so worked up..

okays nvm..
out of tat topic..
talking abt internship..
every single day is getting more and more boring..
nth to do and everyday's feel lyk rotting..
now i dun even feel lyk travelling to work anymore..
it's so far..
thinking of the journey to and fro..
it's taking up too much time..
moreover..
there's still about 8 more weeks..
before everything ends..
that's too long...!!
i cant stand the boredness there anymore..
everyday juz draggin myself there..
and waiting for time to pass..
and den go home..
dots dots dots..
boring life yea? =//
wad to do..
2 more months...

okays..
nth much already.
gonna go slp early..
and drag myself up again tmr for work..
nites =//

2009-06-22T23:06:00.003+08:00

a good news to share today...
i passed my BTT!!
hahahs =))
*Thumbs Up!*

okays been pretty busy recently..
gonna go for a lot of band practices..
and for weekends have to help out in sec sch..
as they are going to have concert on 11th july..

people out there reading ma blog..
my juniors of yuhua sec concert band..
are going to have their band concert on 11th july..
tickets are selling at $12 for stall and $15 for circle..
venue is at Victoria Concert Hall..
if possible do come and support! =))

okays shld be going off soon..
update again soon =)

*yawns*

2009-06-10T20:18:00.002+08:00

i've realised i've met new frens recently..
first came sarah..
got to noe her and found her very adorable..
so happy going..
din noe we could actually clique well..
all thanks to ray..

den found my lost sec sch frens..
first was sydney..
hahas nv talk to him before in sec sch...
there it comes recently..
was talking to him online..
anyway someone muz be damn happy now..
cause this fri ORD already!

lastly, sec sch time hadnt been talking much to this guy..
and in poly kind of lyk hi bye frens..
ever since he studied in ngee ann..
realised that we dun have each other's email..
found it funny the first time talking to him online..
and it was juz a ytd's thing..
hahahs anyway this lucky guy is ryan..
hahahs gd luck for CT! =)

okays.. ytd on the way back home..
the journey back home were fast..
i reached home before 6.30pm?!
can u believe it..?
and guess wad..
i'm actually taking bus home ..
changing from 90 to 151 and den to 157..
and it took exactly the same time to reach home..
when i take mrt home..
okays but anyway..
i saw a long lost fren i used to be talking to during sec sch on 157..
and he's jisheng..
din noe was him..
as he look rather different now without his specs..
was looking at him for quite sometime..
wanted to msg him but realised his no. is not in this phone..
but the other..
so reach home text him and realised i din see wrong person..
he knew it was me but din call out for me..
how bad right?!
hahash juz kidding.. anyway it feels nice to have met up with people..

a week ago..
catch up with guan and weizhong..
they were discussing whole loads abt cars..
and swifting and stuffs..
which actually doesnt much interest me..
but it was rather great catching up with them..
u see..
i dun talk to them in sec sch..
but it seems that things change when we are out of sec sch..
hahahs although weizhong is lyk living in the same block as me..
juz a few units away...?!
hahahs =X
anyway guan is off to brunei already..
hope he's training well there and he's leg gets better..
but i doubt so la..
since he's always jumping..
and had no choice..
it's his profession to do parachuting..
hahahs poor guy! =X

okays let's talk abt work..
noe this post kinda long..
it's been so long since i've updated..
work's pretty slack for the past one month..
hadnt been doing anything..
juz plain talking and crapping in the branch..
with jw and nsf there..
meeting up with the gals soon..
gonna catch up with them once cai cai's CT is over..
it's been long that we have not met.. =/

okays JIA YOU for ALL having CT now!!! XD

2009-06-04T23:18:00.002+08:00

i'm sorry =/...

2009-05-13T00:05:00.004+08:00

monday..
i finally got back to sch to meet cai cai..
and poor joyce..
is having bad cough..
hope she take care of herself..
and drink loads of water..
and definitely..
be resting well =))
went to school to fix my comp stuffs..
ended up waiting a few hours..
it cant be fixed..
kind of sian..
but nice people i met at the helpdesk..
the person whom aid me and joyce was nice..
was talking to us all along..
at least to bring us out of boredom..

time to get serious on job already..
although there is no project at the moment..
but interim report is killing me..
40 PAGES!!!
to be completed for the draft by next mon (18th MAY)..!!
wad the hell??!!!!!
no time already..
today i juz finish a lil of the introduction..
going to rush for the next few days..
hoping to finish it by friday..
so leaving my weekends free..
to rest and to enjoy..
doing pretty well for my report..
will be keeping up this speed and do a lil during work..
since there is no projects on hand for the moment..

okays ciaos... ~~
photos will be uploaded to facebook soon..
take care =//

ps. you need not bother abt my interim..
it doesnt concern you at all..
things are going well..
so u dun need to worry..
i've always left time for you..
have you for me??
i doubt so.. =/
i ever thgt things are getting better..
but when things get smoothly alr..
u went back to wad u were..
so i'm so stupid..
i nv shld have believe i would change anything in the beginning..
damn it!!!
shucccccckkkkksss!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =((
hatred grown so suddenly.. =//

2009-05-07T21:33:00.002+08:00

back for more post..
finally got to catch up old times with my coussies..
next time shall stay longer with them..
miss them real loads =//

will be updating with photos..
during weekends..
when i have more time..
now although presentation is done..
there's still a lot to change..
also interim report is nearing the corner..
have to start preparing everything already..
okays photos will be up next post! =)

2009-04-29T23:14:00.001+08:00

hey hey everybody....!!
i've got smth to share with u guys..
it's gonna be holiday on friday..
as it's a MAY DAY!!!

and so...!
i'll be leaving for malaysia tmr night till mon midnight..
so pls take gd care of urself yea people?!
i've been missing my dear frens loads..
especially my DS frens..
when are we going k again?!!!

and my gal frens from my class...
when are we meeting up again?!!!!

okays take kaiires people..
i've to go slp and prepare for work tmr..
and den at night leave le..
CYA AND HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND EVERYONE!!! =))

2009-04-26T15:10:00.002+08:00

work's been fine recently..
juz that date due is getting nearer..
and juz hate the fact that it's got presentation to make..
seriously i juz hate presenting..
but no choice..
it's part and parcel of life..
everyone have to make presentations one day..
be it now or later..

juz left a few more things to do before submission..
things gonna better better and easier soon..
and then a lil short break..
before jw and me get our new projects..
seriously..
i'm so not used to sit there and do research..
i rather they give me hands on stuffs to do..
this is too boring..
except that there are nice frens met there..
u guys shld noe wad i mean..
dun say i nv met frens there..
but anyway..
they are really nice people..
juz that..
the fact that they are all guys..
damn sian..

used to have gals from rp to accompany me..
but since they left..
left me alone..
damn boring lo..
but still..
as i've said there are nice nsf people there..
the ones i always hang out with =)

recently..
i've been missing sch a lot..
but thinking that the fact when i go back to sch..
having so many modules to take..
and projects to rush...
makes me feel sick of sch..
but definately..
i miss all my gal frens..
the part that we always slack around in class..
talk about funny things..
go for lunch and thinking how to pon lessons..
juz miss them..
wonder when are me meeting again..!!!
it's all about waiting now.. =//

okays time to take a rest and play some games..
ciaos..

2009-04-19T23:06:00.003+08:00

wad's wrong with my life recently?
i juz wonder..
i'm no longer the old me?
i feel so different now..
everyday trying to act to smile..
to be happy..
but actually i dun feel happy at all..
i feel so tired to try..
try and be happy..
damn! :(

2009-04-17T21:42:00.002+08:00

so bored now..
it's a friday..
supposed to be out enjoying??? o.O?
hmmm where's all my frens?
i'm so lonely..
no frens..
to ask me out???

now at home stoning..
looking at the comp..
staring blankly at the screen..
wad to do..
so bored at home..
wad was my friday night in the past used to be lyk?
i guess..
i always go out on friday aft sch..
be it sec sch or poly..
sec sch if nv go out with frens..
jiu means i go for band practice..
at least i've something to do?
hmmm i feel so empty now..
so sian..
friday aft work..
is so boring..
i dun look forward to any fridays lyk before..
prob is the change of life i have..

GALS..
addy, joze, caicai and clarwee..
faster find one day go out again eh..
i'm starting to feel bored aft work le..
no programme..
no enjoyment..
no fun..
everyday so bored..
hais =//
SO SIAN.... =(

2009-04-15T23:13:00.002+08:00

a heart felt for the day..
i was once found breaking down again...
for wad reason??
for the same reason..

i feel so unappreciated.. =/
finish work..
dun care abt other things..
rush all the way there asap..
from PLAB..
knowing u're late..
was damn sian..
wondering why all the stuffs u cannot do before meeting me..
why always have to wait till wanna meet me..
den go do all the things..
was down.. =/

i guess i've nv really waited for anyone before..
only people wait for me..
but even if i'm late..
how late could i go?
the most a few mins..
but wad do i get..
always getting longer and longer each time..
so tired of it..
moreover u stayed so near..
i'm coming from so far..
yet u're late..
i dun understand..

at night the same old thing happen juz lyk before..
meeting up is no longer impt..
den next time dun meet ba..
other things before and aft..
is more impt..
thanks now i noe everything..

work as usual..
things getting more and more complicated..
school for everyone is starting next week..
everybody will be damn busy..
this time i believe is the most lil time ever..
u'll noe wad i mean..
unless u dun understand wad i meant..

okays wadeva..
days passing by so boredly..
with projects and research..
damn freaking bored..
dun feel lyk talking anymore..
damn sian of life now..
dunno is happy or down..
juz so normal and bored.. =//

2009-04-14T21:29:00.002+08:00

internship is getting more and more serious..
and tough..
currently dun really lyk going to work anymore..
due to the project we were given..
it's damn tough i guess..
for both jw and me..
we were almost going to be crazy soon..
juz by doing research can kill us..
we have lil time left..
guess damn lil..
but we had so much to do..
and we're not progressing to anywhere at all..
so sian =/

that's first part..
bill for staying in tamp has arrived..
i was so SURPRISED that the bill was more than $100..
TO BE EXACT..
IT'S $126!!!!
tat's too impossible already..
the reason: i only STAYED there for 2 weeks to 2 and half weeks last month..
plus.. everyday i'm lyk only home at night..
i dun do cooking..
i dun need to do much washing..
and WATER BILLS are totally MADNESS!!!
uncle email my bro..
saying for the first two months of this yr..
his bill was lyk total $200 ++..
plus no one's living there?
how can the price shoot to so much??

logically saying..
if i were to compared the prices..
if got ppl stay $200+ and no ppl stay $100+..
i still think is reasonable..
BUT THE PROB IS..
NOBODY is staying there how can the bill be so ex?!
and i dun use much water and electricity..
how can the bill add up to that much amount of money..
tat seriously arouse my curiosity..
and pissed me off..

lastly..
i't's been one and half month in internship already..
so sian..
still have 3 months and 3 weeks more..
damn sian..
and projects???
DAMN!!!!
i seriously dun feel lyk putting effort to do anymore..
so damn freaking HARD!!!

2009-04-10T21:41:00.004+08:00

i've realised..
i'm kinda trapped in my own world..
to this date..
then i realised smth is wrong..
i seems to be unable to relax..
i wan to noe everything..
i wan to keep u to myself..
i'm starting to lose it already..
seems to be shared by so many people..
there's always cant be juz a single day to myself..
i'm lost..
i'm lost..
i'm seriously lost..
i dunno wad to do..
things are changing..
i dun wan to share..
i'm selfish..
wad to do? wad to do?! =//

a world of my own..

i'll be fine..
dun need to tagged me..
juz dun ask abt anything.. =//

2009-04-07T21:53:00.002+08:00

i really dun understand..
am i really asking for too much or wad..

firstly, i read someone's blog..
saying am i caring abt a meet up or the present?
wth!!
so i am this kind of person la..
say until me lyk that..
thanks man..
this is the first time i really became so ANGRY after so long..
i've nv been so angry for so long already...

ARGH ARGH ARGH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
SUPER DUPER ANGRY!!!!!!!!!!!!
ANGRY TILL I WANNA CRY ARH!!!!!!!!!!!!

so now it's my fault for talking to u..
and asking when u are free la?
everytime i talk to u..
u're busy else u'll be doing ur project.. report..
and wad else have u got?!
juz asking when u free to come out..
turn out to be such a situation..
asking u when u can come out to pass me it..
in the end..
i was to be blame saying i care abt meeting up or the present..
if i dun ask u for it..
will u even talk to me and ask me to come out not?

who is the one whom promise to talk to me aft exam?
who is the one previously told me that exam is only 2 weeks..
aft that free?!
who is the one i've always tried talking to but in the end talking to myself?
so all this i've to blame myself for being so stupid..
everytime i tried talking..
u only reply me once or twice..
den not long aft.. prob only 5 mins of talk..
u have to rush to do something else..
so all this i was to be blame right?!
DAMN!!!
WTH IS THE WHOLE DAMN THING ABOUT?!
juz becos i say i dun need u to pass me anymore..
and ALL THESE came out of ur mind?!
THANKS MAN!!! REALLY APPRECIATE SUCH COMMENTS FROM U!

next thing..
was it becos i'm too sensitive about things.
or are u too insensitive about things?!
i really dun understand..
how can a preson start off being so gd to u..
in the end..
aft a period of time..
things were nv meant to be the same?
u became less and less sensitive about things..
wad else can i say?
later u're going to complain that i'm thinking too much?
complain that i every now and then find things to quarrel?
or complain that u din noe wad to do with it?
becos everythings comes so quickly lyk every 2 days?
u were so concerned abt every small lil things before..
juz meeting would also make an effort..
now everything seems to throw behind..

are u too busy with so many things on hand?
or u totally forgotten everything in the past?!
i control myself..
my temper and everything..
u said i keep everything to myself..
i say out..
u say i every now and den chu STUN!
SO WAD AM I SUPPOSED TO DO?!
DAMN SHYT!!!
wth is all these man..

ARGH!!!
WAD DO U ALL WAN ME TO DO?!
u all are busy?!
i DIG out my time to do wadeva things for u..
u dun lyk it..
i deleted everything away..
i hold back everything..
wad else have i got to do..
i really tried hard to endure..
endure for every temper that i wanna throw.

ARGH!!!!
DAMN SHYT!!!
I DUN NEED ALL OF U ALL'S CONCERN!!!
SO TIRED OF EVERYTHING!!!
@.@ !!!!!!

2009-03-31T22:15:00.002+08:00

i'm utterly upset this few days..
wad had happen?
wad's happening? =(
i broke down every single day..
i felt that i'm starting to lose already..
am i too sensitive?? =//
i need some answers from u..
i guess u've given to me..
but i juz feel so insecure..
i'm down.. i'm upset..
AAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!! =(

wad's all this about??!!!!
argh!! so frustrated.. so fan!!!

FAN AH!!!!! =((

2009-03-24T21:17:00.004+08:00

i had a veh great day ytd..

wont tell u guys wad's abt the happiness..

but anyway juz wanna tell one person..

HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY!!! XD

anyway i wanted to upload this quite sometime ago..

but i keep forgetting..

was browsing through my photos in the phone..

den i realise i've forgotten abt it..

hahas =X

this is a photo when i was taking the mrt back..

from tamp back to my hse..

and i realise the new functions that is shown in the mrt..

it follows exactly the same kind of design..

that is used in HK..

the last time i saw this was in HK abt 2 yrs ago..

and currently s'pore is following the trend already..

okays 2 weeks of internship have passed..

pretty boring..

really nth to do at all..

really lyk rotting there =/

wonder when will i start my project?

everyday dunno wad to write for my report..

anyway finally get to have my own temp pass already..

else everyday..

pass the CP2..

have to keep repeating "attachment"..

it's so tiring.. =))

ps. how long to endure?

wanna say yet so hard..

it's always not suitable yet..

i wish.. i wish... =//

2009-03-20T22:19:00.002+08:00

angry angry angry?
today i was a lil angry..
plus i felt so exhausted yet i patiently waited..
i was angry when i saw ur msg..
knowing that u din take my msg seriously..
and forgotten abt wad i've said..
but aft awhile i'm okay le..
so i din take to to heart..
den i reach early..
upon arrival..
saw ur msg..
knowing u're late..
i promise to wait..
but seeing all the buses before u arrive..
the norms that u'll be taking..
wondering how come u will miss sooo many of them..
was angry at first..
but later i felt okay already..
juz feeling tired..
aft a whole day of work..
den back to tamp to keep all the clothes..
den vaccuum..
rush myself and ask myself to hurry..
and not to let u wait..
sweating all over juz to rush back..
den i patiently waited..
met to eat dinner..
was juz too tired to talk and leg's cut not recovering..
so juz kept quiet..
u ask me wad i wanted.. i ask u to get urs..
den u flare up and even push the table..
i dunno was i shld say.. it's juz so hurting..
exam is coming..
there's so much to say..
yet i couldnt say.. =//

while watching yi qie wa mei 2..
i have so much to say.. so pain inside..
needed time off....... =//

2009-03-18T18:56:00.002+08:00

sorry readers..
din have the time to update due to the start of INT..
internship had progressed for a week already..
first week was plainly boring..
including this past few days..
nothing really much tat i could do..
read newspaper, magazines, talk to people..
everyday doing the same thing over and over again..
only 2 occasions..
one was last fri..
the whole ALD had this healthy lifestyle programme..
which they actually invited us to join them..
it's actually a walk at MacRitchie Reservoir..

the other occassion was ytd..
my branch had a branch lunch at one seafood restaurant..
somewhere in Hougang i think??
hahas but that was really a sumptous meal though..
pretty ex eh!! =X
hahas but food was veh nice of course..

anyway today..
met up with my LO for lunch..
juz mainly talking about how's life there..
and wad we mainly do there..
hahas oh ya!!
forgot!! i wanna talk abt the food there..
there's only one canteen there..
and the canteen only had 1 stall..
and this stall only sells 3 different kinds of sets..
and this 3 different kinds is always reoccurring daily..
so bored of the food there already! =(

and the routine of my life now..
is everyday the same..
morning - go work..
evening - go home..
- do housework..
- eat dinner..
night - do report and den slp..

wad a boring life right??
ahahas but not a choice that i can choose..
and moreover..
i have to endure through this life..
for another 5 MONTHS!!!
GOSH! it's going to be damn long.. =//

mood: tired =/

2009-02-28T14:13:00.002+08:00

hey hey..
can see the beautiful rainbow up there?
hhahahs it was taken on 25th feb(wed) ard 7:15pm..
after eaten my dinner..
den was heading to JP library to study..
and it was a rainy afternoon that day..
was so happy to see such a nice rainbow..
first time seeing such a beautiful rainbow!! =)

anyway was very happy that finally holiday already..
and also all the exams are over already..
no more papers to think abt anymore..
and this means that our attachment is going to start soon..
and so it means it's going to be a tiring day everyday soon..
and also means that the trip to my workplace is going to be tedious..
very hard to get there..
how i wish there's someone to send me there..
but confirm dun have one bah..

so sian.. means i dun have much free time to spare le..
and no time for me to play..
everyday after work..
have to go home and do my weekly report..
in detail..
it's actually daily report..
hmmms think tat's going to be my life..
for the upcoming 6 months internship..

okays guess i wanna go enjoy and prepare for my internship le..
have fun having ur holidays people!! =)

2009-02-21T16:33:00.002+08:00

wad a "cool" day we have today..
indeed cooling yea?
but yet making me so restless to study..
and so end up here blogging..
nth much recently..
but juz studying and preparing for upcoming exams..
had only 2 examinable papers this sem..
and that is none other than MPI and DCNT!!!

kind of go to noe where the gals are posted to..
except for joyce..
dunno why the person have called her though.. =/
anyway addy is going DSO in eunos..
and she's going to be lyk my neighbour..
as i'll be going to Paya Labar Air Base..
well and as for clarwee..
she's going to some MPI company..
cant rmb the name though..
and hope joyce had a gd place of attachment too..

last week was my company dinner..
at marche..
woo~~
everyone was super high and it's really a great gathering..
36 people turned up in total in the end..
and food there was marvelous but PRICY!!!
and i guess there's a hole in susan's pocket already! =X
pics wont be posted though..
but u could check out my facebook..
as mainly the photos are all there already..
it was a great evening that night..
and i guess everybody had loads of fun yea?! =)

OHH YA!!
forgotten to state..
ATTACHMENT IS GOING TO START ON 9TH march!!
so most probably i'll be going to tampines to staY..
as my uncle had a hse there..
but he's in HK working..
so i'll be staying there alone..
and the other reason is becos..
it's nearer to my workplace =)

anyway i better get back to studying already..
it's pretty late in the afternoon already..
jia you for EXAMS people!!! =)

ps.
sometimes i'm juz thinking..
have i not done enough..
or am i doing too much..
or shld i juz dun complain..
and accept everything that it is..
i ponder and questioned myself..
i.... i.... i....
i dunno..
probably i'll juz accept the fact..
and keep quiet..
shldn't complain nor say so much..
else unhappiness will fall upon again..
i promise myself to change..
i'm trying..
i think i have..
can u feel it?
i'm not getting angry so often..
i've tried to control..
can u feel it?
i'm juz questioning.. =//

2009-02-14T01:06:00.002+08:00

What is your True Fear? Your Result: Being Alone While you may act like you don't care on the outside, on the inside your biggest fear is being alone. You can be quite shy and reserved. You feel like a lot of times people don't really see the real you. You're afraid that no one will really truly love you, and that you will be alone for the rest of your life. On the inside you are great person, so just remember that and don't let your shy nature get the best of you! If you don't want to be a lone then you need to make an effort to be with someone. Show the people that you care about that you really love them, and chances are someone will always be there, even if you think they won't.
Losing Someone
Commitment
Disappointment
Looked down on
Where Your life is Going
Death
What is your True Fear? Quiz Created on GoToQuiz

i guess i am..
wad a person i am..
sometimes i juz think..
i suited to no one..
i'm a person living in my own world..
but at times i do feel the presence..
juz tat i dunno wad i'm feeling..
i'm upset? i'm angry?
i dunno..
i juz simply dun lyk the present me..
in certain times..
i juz feel i shldnt be here at all..
=/

attachment is juz around the corner..
everything pulling so close..
so worried for everything..
how would it affect my life?
i simply dunno..
probably i always think a lot..
tat's why i'm in such a dilemia..
wad a day to me?
i guess it's juz another yr had pass..

was preparing for smth..
yet it turn out to be so wrong..
guess i made the wrong move..
i dun understand everything well..
sometimes i juz thght..
wad shld i do? why shld i do?
i do noe the reason..
but it juz seems tat i'm confused..
i guess i'm wrong abt some things..

needa slp..
=//

2009-01-30T14:16:00.003+08:00

back for more bloggin..
caught a movie recently..
"love matters"
pretty funny and nice show by jack neo..
now i noe why it's rated NC 16..
lil kids whom are not 16 yet..
dun try go in arh..
later corrupt ur brain..
not gd not gd..
hahahs! =X
rate it 9/10.

today will be a boring day for me..
sch's from 9 to 5pm..
den aft that dunno wad to do..
dun feel lyk going home yet..
but there's no where else to go...
juz feel so bored..
anyway finish dcnt lab..
now slacking in the lib..
waiting for the next lesson to come..
which is at 3pm..

so bothered by things recently..
and also by countless number of hwks and projects..
so frustrating..
exams are so near..
haven start preparing yet..
dunno wad i shld do..
the last time when i see my results..
i wasnt pleased..
due to some reasons..
i was kind of angry too..
but wadeva it's over..
probably i think studying alone is better..
but will that make my results go better?
i really wonder..
sometimes it's hard to believe wad others say..
but the fact is the more u help..
although u learn throughout the process too..
but scoring better would always be someone else..
that's from my experience..
but however, prob i shld learn to study myself..
get away from all the temptations..
be alone and focus on wad i have to study..

ohh ya..
another thing i was kinda upset about was..
actually..
dunno why seeing my frens all talking abt cny..
and gambling and all the happy times they spend..
with frens or families or relatives..
i was kind of envious..
yet i had no such times..
every yr also the same..
wad a boring cny..
dun even had the mood to actually celebrate it..
always seeing them talking about going who's hse..
and stuffs..
sometimes really dun feel lyk bothering..
but was kinda upset when i hear it..
wad i feel..
i cant tried to ignore..
sometimes i juz wish to be in part of it..
it's too hurting..
hmmm it's okay i guess..
juz need to learn as more yrs passed..
happy cny anyway to those whom played hard..
and gambled hard and win loads of money..
=/

mood: helpless.. lonely.. sad =//

hais.. i ever wish tat it's disclosed..
it's so hard to keep..
and trying ways to endure on..
but i had nv notice how troubled i am..
figuring out ways on my own..
finding a better solution..
yet pondering over and over each day..
afraid of things may go haywire..
every single minute and moment..
been thinking and scared..
juz wondering how long have i to wait..
juz for that very special word..
it's been yrs..
yet the decision was made..
wondering how i can try change tat decision.........

2009-01-29T13:20:00.002+08:00

i wan to talk no more..
i think i've created much problem..
i wish i was invisible..
i wish i was stronger..
den u wont have to bother abt me so much..
it makes us hurt so much..
so much unhappiness..

hadnt been slping well lately..
juz so bored..
bored of everything..
how i wish i hadnt cause so much trouble..
how i wish everthing were lyk before..
i dunno wad i wan..
i hate this life..
i wanna get out of everything..
but i cant..
i made promises..
i have to do as i promise..

i'm sorry..
i guess i'm juz a trouble maker..
=//

2009-01-26T17:10:00.006+08:00

HAPPY Chinese New Year EVERYONE!!!
新年快乐。。万事如意。。

ytd went to esplanade area for the chinese new yr event with my family..

dunno wad's the place named in english..

but chinese is "chun dao he ban" -- 春道河绊..

had been going to take a look every year..

to look at all the stuffs..

however, this yr there's not much things there as compared to the past..

nth much to see and buy..

and also it's drizzling when i arrived there..

think almost throughout the whole evening till night time..
took some photos..

it is just at the floating bay near esplanade..

entrance..

cai shen

zodiac : horses take notes!!!

oranges?! hahahs =X

chess on display! =)

my family's zodiac..

that's abt it..

ohh ya ya..

anyway, ytd i had my reunion dinner with my family early..

that's why go out ard evening time..

had steamboat!! *yum yum!* =P

hmmm okays talk abt something else..

SparksWinds' concert had been a GREAT SUCCESS!!

thanx to all who turn up!!! to make it so successful..

and to all members whom had been practicing hard..

as time is short for practices..

to make the concert so successful!! =)

had great comments abt the concert from frens..

yea!! XD

recently been feeling a lil down and got a bit temperamental..

duno wad has gone wrong in me..

i feel so frustrated..

wad am i asking for?

wad exactly do i wan??

wad's wrong with me???

hais..

i dunno =/

i guess i shall immerse my time to be busy..

so i wont think so much.. =//

2009-01-04T01:57:00.004+08:00

CRAVING FOR SOME CNY SNACKS?!!!!! =)

here's a deal: -
my mum selling homemade freshly baked PINEAPPLE TARTS!!!
selling at the price of

$17 for 35 tarts;

$28 for 60 tarts;

anyone who wans to order some juz simply leave me a msg at my tagboard or sms me if possible!! i'll make further arrangement =)

2009-01-01T21:26:00.002+08:00

HAPPY 2009 TO EVERYONE!!!

a new year has come..
2008 which is a bad yr is OVER..
so let everything tat has happen be bygones..
and a new yr is awaiting infront of us!!!
let the new year overtake the bad yr!!!! =)

newly updates about the programs tat i'll be busy with:-
1) ngee ann band concert
date: 11th Jan 2009(sun)
venue: Singapore Conference Hall
time: 7.30pm
repertoire: there will be ten pieces.. update abt it soon.

2) sparkswinds concert
date: 18th Jan 2009(sun)
venue: Singapore Conference Hall
time: 7.30pm
repertoire: updated soon!!

woo~
thus, i'll have loads and loads of practices coming up!!!!
so first two week i'll be busy with practices and practices..
never-ending busy things to do..
everything tat all my frens always say has come true..
i'm always so busy..
wanna ask u out also dunno when is the perfect day and date..
hahahs..
sorry people!!!!
i'll find time to go out with u guys okays?!!!
so sry... =/

okays enough of all those..
shall carry on to mug on my holiday assignment le..
better get started either today or tmr..
else i wont have the time again..
take kaiires people..
and will get back on updates soon!!!
stay tuned.. =)

and last but not least..
HAPPY NEW YEAR TO ALL ONCE AGAIN!!!! =)

2008-12-19T00:40:00.002+08:00

back for blogging..
currently finish all the hectic assignments and ct alr..
so happy..
enjoying the holidays and of course working..

i'll talk abt my ct first..
although only had 2 papers..
but both the papers are kinda more of memory work..
basically one is programming and the other networking..
programming one have to really get the concept right..
also not forgetting wad the question ask u to do..
but it was rather hard to understand the programming kind of eng..
so hard to understand..
that's for sure hard to score..

next is networking..
everything is memory work..
only a few questions is calculation..
calculation is kinda easy to score..
yet hard to figure it out..
some is lyk also dunno wad the ques is asking abt..
aiyo everything too chim already..
cant really understand it though..

so ct was over..
juz hope that this sem i could really score well..
becos 2 based on presentation and projects..
2 is smth lyk continuous assessment..
so is only lyk class test..
and 2 will be exam based..
juz pray pray hard hard la hor.. =X

den was work..
took my comm test abt a month ago..
juz got news abt the test on 16th dec..
and guess wad???!!!!!
I PASSED MY TEST!!!!! WOO~~~~ =))
and now i can start getting comm!!!
that's the best part of everything..
hahahs simply juz so happy..

working was tiring though..
as christmas is nearing..
stocks comes in and ordering is alternate days..
so rather tiring..
one day order next day pack..
and it goes on and on..
=((

mon (15th dec)..
went out with my ds frens..
woo~~
a great catch up though..
went k with sojini, pingting(first time w her), ryan and richard..
someone(ck) so busy lo..
cant come in the aftn to enjoy singing with us..
den met up with michelle, yvonne, sijiao and ck at night for movie (twilight)..
show was very nice and touching..
both the actor and actress are very charming and beautiful..
rate it: 10/10!!!
simply juz love the show!!!
starting to get addicted and wanna noe abt the next episode soon..
shall read the book probably???

okay updates on mon outing with photos soon..
take kaiires people..
too tired..
wanna slp le..
yawns~~~~

2008-11-26T22:20:00.002+08:00

okays due dates for all assignments are getting nearer and nearer..
down 2 but left 2..
still deciding on either to go for IAP or one yr project..
someone pls give me some advice..

Path 1: IAP
first half of the yr = attachment program..
second half of the yr = project and modules to take..
this path will be more stress due to second half of the yr..
there will be 6 to 7 modules to be taken while doing fyp..
and if first half of the yr..
suddenly, meet retrenchment..
have to go back sch..
lecturers will assign u things to do and no PAY given..

Path 2: whole yr project
there will be 2 projects to be done..
first half of the yr u can choose ur own project to do..
and this is only started juz from my yr onwards..
den second half would be a given one i think???
most prob..
but of course this choice give u more time and relax timetable..
due to modules that taken would be spread out throughout the yr..
not lyk IAP..
all in one sem..

so how? so how???? SO HOW??!!
muz submit my decision soon man..
hmmm wad to take man?
seriously cant make up my mind..
IAP i'm considering the travel fee and stuffs..
and it's gonna be so far man!!
all near changi area..
someone pls tag me for some advice??

next week would be some tests going on already..
some module test..
some continuous assessments..
thus no formal ct is taken..
gonna be so tight up with schedule..
haven even start revising for my ct..
damn jia lat!!!

okays have to start preparing my presentation tmr..
and also presentation slides for another module for compilation on fri..
='/

2008-11-14T20:31:00.002+08:00

projects.. presentation.. assignments.. online tutorials..
last but NOT LEAST.. COMMON TEST!!!
everything is coming already!!!
oh my tian!! oh my TIAN!!! OH MY TIAN!!!
in 3 more weeks time..
it's gonna be my upcoming COMMON TEST ALREADY?!!
it came so unprepared and so sudden and PACKED!!

things that i have to do before ct comes:
1) BTS test on 18Nov(tues)
2) French presentation & written assessment 19Nov(wed)
3) AS presentation 23Nov(sun)
4) Human Factor presentation 24Nov(mon) -30Nov(sun)
*prob one of these days bahs*
5) Common test 8Dec(mon) - 14Dec(sun)

schedule is so sO So SOO PACKED MAN!!!!
damn.. Damn DAMN!!!
i shall be busy with my studies for abt this coming ONE month or so..
really need to study real hard..
and make sure i pass every module!!
seems lyk this sem's module is kinda hard though..

okays let's put studies aside for now first..
recently have been catching up with old frens..
suddenly so many NV contact frens start contacting..
but quite gd though..
and noe different things from them..
kinda of miss old sch days..
not in sch.. but frens..

other than tat..
is always studying and slacking..
kinda no mood to study for this sem..
modules too hard..
and no motivation man..
hmmmm...

ps. i wonder when will the day comes..............

2008-11-12T00:34:00.003+08:00

one funny video to share with u guys!
wahahahahas!!! =X
ENJOY~

2008-10-31T15:52:00.003+08:00

hello! i am eighteen alr! yay!
i wanna learn how to drive! anyone wanna teach mee?
if you want to , very gd, you make money.
but if you want somemore money, i can pay you to upgrade my psp to ver 4
if you are bored, i can play viwawa with you. i love wawa.

i love Avionics system! Mr Yeo rox!
Clarissa wee rox!
Joyce lin roxxx!
Caiying rows!
Addy pons!
Meiyi dj maxes! i am maxed out! "new record leh!!!" "new record!!""

win already.

2008-10-20T23:54:00.006+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!!

i'm finally 18 i can say!!!
hahahs..
although had been waiting for this day for veh long alr.
thanks ppl for ur greetings to me!
u guys are much appreciated!

mr 6DY.
be ready soon.
becos in another 6 days time..
IT"S GONNA BE UR TURN!!!
XD

although din really spend much of my time celebrating.
due to classes from 9am to 5pm.
still..
it was a wonderful day spend!

thanks my class gals!
cy, addy, joze and clarwee for the wonderful surprise at the LOCKER!
and the wonderful cake u guys prepare for me.
and truely speaking..
i was shocked by the things u guys prepared!
THANKS SOOOO MUCH!!!

THANKS to :-
mummy, sherman, yida, kenny, zikun, wenwei, ruoxuan, meijing, wailreng, beatrice, cy, addy, joyce, clarwee, daniel, ms yufen, ms joyce, annyong, weixiang, kes, weiren, farah, jin, asrenee, fiona, terrence, ryan, sebastian, azri, huiqin, shunfu, deepa, piyi, hao, teohuei, jonathon, malcom, nicholas, vincent, yongchie and some more of my classmates which i forgotten who!! OPPS!! =X

2008-09-29T19:23:00.002+08:00

for some reasons..
i'm feeling so useless..
so ridiculous..
always do the wrong thing..
say the wrong words..
i dunno wad i could do to mend my mistakes..
i din mean it..
i juz wanted to make it clear..
but everything seems to go wrong..
everytime i said smth..
i wanna shut myself off already..
feeling so down now..
so pissed with myself..
cant stand the stupid attitude of mine..

i'll get lost for the moment..
sorry for everything.. =/

2008-09-20T14:37:00.002+08:00

recently been working almost every single day.
not tired though.
juz enjoyed working every day.
looking and playing with the lil kids.
dun feel lyk doing other things else.
but juz working now.

although working hours may be long.
but still i ENJOYED it!
with the people i work with.
with the new frens tat i make.
it's enough for now.
dun wanna do anything else for the moment.

anyway results out! =)
and also timetable's out.. =/
kinda happy with my results.
although my class was damn pro!
a lot of people got GPA 4.0!
however, wasnt quite pleased with my timetable now.
hope they faster change change CHANGE!!!
dun wan everyday 9 - 5pm!
veh sianz one..

wed is IS enrolment day!
better choose something i lyk.
dun wanna regret later tat i got no interest in the module.
den pull down my grades.
3 more weeks to sch reopen.
holidays pass so fast eh?!
7 weeks of holidays left with 3 weeks!
but my days are spend fruitfully.
not wasting any of my time!

okays anyway today i'm going for my ex ex tuition teacher's wedding.
at four seasons hotel in orchard.
woo~
my veh first time attending a wedding eh!
kinda excited though.
okays better start preparing.
updates abt weddings soon!! =)

approved? or not approved?
i'm in such a dilemia..
i need answers..
pls tell me i'm fit to now~
i need it bADly..
i wan it to be gd!
give me the APPROVAL pls!~

2008-09-04T15:35:00.002+08:00

not been updating for almost a week or so le.
currently becos din have anything much to update abt.
also currently only my desktop can access to the internet.
so had a lil prob managing the time with my bro.
but currently now my bro is not using.
so i'm here to update a lil.
also might not be onlining too frequent.
till i settle my internet probs with starhub.

anyway recently a lot of things been happening bahs.
suntec band performance coming up later.
at night.
it's a lil rush but still results of the songs.
not bad not bad.
cos only 4 songs lyk tat.
den another thing coming up.
is helping ken for his film shooting.
dunno when's his confirm schedule.
juz hope it doesnt crash with my work timing.
cause i'll be starting work next week.

supposingly today is the start of the shooting.
but too bad i had performance.
i have to miss it today.
so sorry to everyone.
becos i played an impt character in the film?
hmmms will attend it no matter wad next shoot.
hope the result will be a gd one.
also it's gonna be my first time acting.
so i wonder how i would react.
hope i dun spoil the shoot only.
*worries* =/

dunno when will my next update be.
but still enjoy holidays bas! =)

i chose a different route.
a path tat i chose for some reasons.
or maybe i'm still wondering.
i also dunno.
juz hope to be decisive sometimes.
for some reasons.
needed some confirmation.
all i need is time i guess.
too many things.
and questions cropped up in my mind.
take it slow now........ =/

2008-08-26T15:38:00.002+08:00

finally all the exams are over.
7weeks of holidays starts now until oct 12.
had been enjoying my day out this few days.
went k-ing.
met up with lance and xh.
although they first time see each other on mon.
but seems lyk they can chat eh.
basically, sun i went to meet lance and taught him maths.
den headed to meet xh for dinner at shokutsu.
had a great time chat with both of them.
although it's only a short while tat we meet up.

aftn had a heart to heart chat with lance but he's the one saying abt his poly life.
hahahs din noe was rather interesting though.
and that's the first time i really meet up with him.
and as for the night.
lance went off first and i met up with xh.
my long lost almost 5 yrs of fren.
din talk for almost a few yrs or so.
recently met him on bus den started chatting again.
but he was rather busy with his projects.
so not much time to talk.
and finally got to met up with him becos he's having 2 weeks holiday now.
had a long long long chat with him too.
until the shop's closed! =)

as for ytd.
met up with xh again.
as today is his bday!
so was thinking to celebrate with him earlier.
as he have plans today.
den went out with him till evening.
although it's juz a short period of time.
juz hope he enjoyed the day.
den evening met up with my frens.
went for fiona's singing performance at douby ghaut.
almost added up to 20 of us went to support her.
so was lyk the whole place is filled with us! =)
hardmusic was the place.
wasnt feeling that well in the morning.
so was lyk din eat till at night.
den aft tat, everyone dispersed.
most of them went to eat steamboat.
while the rest headed to somewhere else.

so everyone!
i'm having my holidays now.
feel free to call me out if u wan! =)
enjoy ur holidays too~

2008-08-22T01:22:00.001+08:00

EXAM'S OVER!
wOoOo~
holidays for 7 weeks! =)

hmmm currently not in the mood to blog.
update anytime bahs =/

2008-08-20T21:41:00.002+08:00

updated on my previous post.
last paper tmr!
wOoOoOo~
ACDA paper tmr!!!!
hmmms den it's celebration time.
gonna head for lunch at pizza hut tmr.
den for movie with my gal- frens!

first time got celebration aft exams.
and really going out tgt tmr.
always had been saying during each holidays.
muz really go out tgt and have fun.
but each time only say say only.
in the end all no time to meet out and everything.
hmmm juz hope this holiday.
really got ANOTHER time to go out again man.

hmmms okays.
today's paper was alright.
did waste my time prepare and memorising the notes.
always hated theory base papers.
but finally over le.
so now i'm gonna continue to study for my last paper soon.
update soon bahs! =)

2008-08-19T01:21:00.004+08:00

back for short updates.
recently been preparing for my upcoming exams.
thus din update much abt anything.
becos everyday will be studying.
ps * not really true *!
hahahs.
most of the time i've been spending time with ma tv.
watching the OLYMPICS!!
damn it man.
why does exams come at this time man?!
when olympic is going on and so interesting.
so spoil mood man.

anyway i had 4 papers.
~~8th Aug(fri) - FOOP paper~~
~~15th Aug(fri) - DEL paper~~
~~20th Aug(wed) - TP paper~~
~~21st Aug(thurs) - ACDA paper~~

done with 2 and left with 2.
hmmm it's gonna be a hard time though.
becos tp isnt tat easy.
even the cleverest person in my class says IT'S HARD!!!!
damn i think i need to buck up le.
so gonna continue to mug for exams le.
take kaiires people.

STUDY HARD!!!!

2008-08-11T01:06:00.002+08:00

8th aug(fri)
as for the week from mon to today.
had been busy studying for test.
as today is foop test.
and it's a theory test.
so mainly programming in written format.
so was praying hard tat it wont be so tough.
and the time was lyk at 5.30 to 7pm?
oh my tian eh.
so late.
din go for sch although it's the last day of sch.
slack at home until time near paper.
foop was okay but think a lot of wrongs.
anyway no point saying becos it's over.
den headed down to comp.
had some grouping and interviews.
den headed home tiredly.
=/

9th aug(sat)
it was a long day out today.
but a wonderful day spent.
enjoyed my day wonderfully and happily.
it was aft such a long time.
i actually enjoyed myself so much.
but of course it came with a lil "dai jia".
which is tat i'm aching all over now.
hahahs but still the day spent was great.

had a day out with my wonderful frens at ecp.
had troubles getting there at first.
becos of not knowing wad bus to take.
den upon reaching.
alighted too far from the mac.
so in the and walked over to mac from area E.
weather was freaking hot in the afternoon.
but still the breeze came along.
and was rather cooling although it's in the hot sun.
met up with all of them.
den started playing.
beach volley!
my favourite!
so long no played.
den a bit of captain's ball matches.
but overall was great.

den dark clouds came by and gave us a big shower!
which den we headed to parkway parade for dinner.
and aft dinner was to bball court for 2nd round of exercise.
hahahs den everyone went home shag-ly.
loads and loads of blisters.
oh ya while playing captain's ball.
i broke my last finger nail.
damn and realised it only aft a few mins later.
with blood flowing on the inside.
hahahs but now okay le.

10th aug(sun)
today woke up aching all over.
den met up with zk to study in sch.
surprisingly the sch was kinda a lot of people.
dunno why on a sun so many people still goes to sch.
but i guess maybe it's becos of the exam period.
everyone's busy studying.
back to topic.
help him with his eng mec.
although it has been 2 sems tat have pass.
at least by flipping through the book.
i still could rmb a lil.
but not much.
becos a lot of dunnos.
in the end.
we end up using 'ticam'.
which meant try and error.
and scored not bad in the web tut.

den headed to bugis.
wanted to go for some praying.
becos ytd met up with some "dirty things" with fel at the bball court.
in the end were too late.
it was closed already so went back my hse area for dinner.
den home swiit home.
which i'm watching an interesting match now.
USA VS CHINA! bball match.
shag.
gonna slp aft finish watching! =P

i need some answers man!!!!!!! argggh~

2008-08-02T03:50:00.005+08:00

hmmms.
why do i feel so vexed?
so confused?
did so much thinking abt something?
hmmms.
i need some answers.
seriously need some answers.
but it isnt the right time now.
at this moment.
i dun wish anything to go wrong.
or becos of me.
things got worst and more things will happen.

hmmms.
i think i juz need some time alone.
it juz feel so shyt.
i felt terrible inside.
how i really wish to share it out.
but no.
i cant.
not becos i dun wish to.
but i cant.
sry.

i noe people are concern.
it's okay.
u wont understand wad i'm saying de.
i juz wan to say smth out here.
at least i wont get so tied up inside me.
i need time alone.
u noe i dun call nor tell people i'm down.
so dun bother asking me to call or juz say it out.
no point.
leave me alone.

i need to get my answers soon myself.
give me some time to settle it i guess.
i juz hope my thinking wasnt wrong.
so at least i wont feel that terrible.
even i was wrong.
i juz hope to noe the answer.
give me some time bah. =/

damn damn damn damn damn!
i hate this feeling!
choked! suffocated! terrible!

give me some time to stay alone now~ =/

2008-07-30T20:33:00.002+08:00

my promise to upload the photos i did ytd.
hahahs can you believe it's my art?
i love it man.
although i felt lyk a small kid! =P

(left = deco art, right = sand art)

hahas does anyone noe wad is the photo below?
interested to find out more can come find me.
or juz contact me. =)

2008-07-29T22:34:00.002+08:00

hmmms okays.
today is a short update i think.
sch was boring.
doing programming was even more boring.
so in the end.
everything i did was juz to copy and paste from people.
hahahs anyway muz thanx sherms.
cause i take from him one =X

den went out with mummy for dinner.
den went to look for my mum's fren.
den in the end.
end up doing sand art and deco art.
hahas.
photos will be uploaded soon.
today the internet got prob.
cant seems to upload the photos.
=)

2008-07-27T23:54:00.002+08:00

okays.
finally the week has come to an end.
all the band performances.
everything has ended.
gave out a sigh of relief.
finally!

anyway today was np band's sentosa performance.
everything was played okays bah.
juz tat maybe outdoor.
so the sound abit oh my tian.
hahahs but overall okays lo.
ended ard 4 plus.
den headed to somewhere to chill and slack a while.
den meet back at 5.30 and headed back to sch.

aft which headed to je entertainment.
FOR DINNER!
hungry hungry hungry!
went pizza hut.
yum yum! cheesy!
loves.
but money fly away. =/
so now have to control le.
cannot eat at too expensive place.

hmmms anyway although band has already finished.
but next up will be more jia lat one.
cause exams are NEARING!
plus this week is exactly 3 weeks more!
damn.
really have to start to do planning for studies.
if not my exams will be damn cui!!!!
hahahs.
so jia you bahs x 100 times!!!

shag.

2008-07-25T17:30:00.003+08:00

okays finally the SIBF'08 is over.

wOo~

actually think ytd was rather a screwed up performance.

on the actual period of time when we played.

damn~

it's was veh saddening and played a lot of mistakes.

hmmms dropped a few tears aft comp.

thght abt how i played in the comp.

i felt that i let down the band.

thanx frens for consoling.

i'm okay aft awhile though.

thanx wl for talking to me on the phone for awhile. =)
thanx everyone.

anyway although we din played veh well.

we managed to clench a bronze medal.
so not that bad aft all.

hmmms if only i did not make stupid mistakes.

and if only the band isnt so nervous.

only den i think we will achieve better.

but den nvm it's okay.

everything's over and so be happy with it! =)

rp is a damn nice place.

really enjoyed the sch's facilities there.

however one thing tat i feel out is.

the sch's not veh happening.

not lyk np.

got the warmth feeling around.

and the joyful and laughter moments.

they seems to lack of it in rp.

well, other than that.

others are pretty great.

food. air-con. library. everything's SHIOK!!!

okays.

next up would be sunday's performance at sentosa.

okays juz hope it wont rain.

outdoor performance rain veh cui one.

hmmm also aft performance.

think really have to chiong studies also.

damn!~

exams is nearing.

dun start studying will cause my results to fall.

okays lastly.

juz a photo of my gd frens.

yhcb bandsmen!

2008-07-23T23:58:00.002+08:00

today is the last day before the comp tmr.
woo~
excited yet afraid.
hmmms anyway today did 3 times run through.
i think 2nd time was the best run through.
and best out of the 3 times that we've played.
and lala agreed too.
hmmms heard azri annouced the results of the band played today.
woo~
the result wasnt tat gd.
and that means their criteria and marking system veh strict.
OH MY TIAN!
it's only lyk 2 gold, 4 silver, dunno how many bronze and 4 COP!

OH MY TIAN!
damn.
so tmr muz really play well eh!
hmms if not we might not stand a chance to win!
better hope everyone gave the best for tmr.
anyway dunno why today my first note cant come out.
seems to be lyk some fright before comp.
better not be man.
if not tmr jia lat.
hmmm muz really put in my best for tmr.
i juz hope i dun get nervous.
becos my HANDS WILL BECOME SWEATY!
damn.
sweaty palms are veh jia lat man.
hmmms =/

tmr everyone juz give it out all bah!!!
GAMBATE EVERYONE!!! =)

2008-07-22T21:17:00.002+08:00

hmmm mon tues had been a normal and sianz day for me.
always band band band.
but if i dun practice hard.
i wont be able to perform well in competition on this coming thurs.
and my fourth movement.
is not completely perfect yet.
becos until today I STILL CANT SUSTAIN THROUGHOUT!
damn.
thurs is comp.
better jia you man.
hope my blocked nose and phelgm faster go away.
so tat i can be well on the day of comp.
and i'll play my best.
play when sick is the worst performance man.

tmr will be the last practice before comp already.
have to put in my 101% effort to do my best tmr.
cannot make any mistakes anymore man.
if not veh jia lat.
cause comp day will confirm gan chiong one.
damn!
okays really have to work real hard le.
although in this band.
i dun really feel the enthusiasm and fighting spirit towards comp.
but still i'll do my best for comp.
work hard with the band and achieve smth from it.
加油。加油。加油！

2008-07-20T22:42:00.002+08:00

hmmms okays it's been a week since i last update.
can say i'm rather busy recently.
so din have the time to update for almost a week plus.
recently a lot of things happen.
so down man.

but still although it's veh frustrating.
had a day to kind of vent it out ytd.
although it's juz a short period of time.
but still i enjoyed it.
anyway i'm gonna have a busy week next week.
a week for band!
sectionals.
combines.
competition on thurs.
and last but not least
sentosa performance on sun.

wOo~
cUi arh!
tired tired tired.
got to noe my exam timetable already.
15th aug - del exam (2-4pm)
20th aug - tp exam (9-11am)
21st aug - acda exam (9-11am)

left not much time le so have to really buck up on studies.
damn~ so many things to get done.
august is gonna be a real stressful and tiring month for me.
had to undergo through a lot of things.
so juz hope i could take it.
but i think i will ba. =)
be positive man!

not going to update much abt wad i did for the past week.
but juz kind of enjoyed my time spent ba.
at least it's something worth rmbering.
looking forward to new things ahead.
jia you bahs! =P
stay on and be strong.

BAND WEEK!
jia you for competition!
and tp lab test on FRI!
and lastly.
SENTOSA PERFORMANCE ON SUN~!

2008-07-11T00:58:00.003+08:00

recently been kinda busy with a lot of things.
so yappie rarely got the chance to update.
anyway i've been reaching home ard 11plus 12 this few days.
so dun feel lyk updating.
cause life's been so gd.
shiok~ pretty happy with my circus of enjoyment now.
anyway dun rmb wad i did almost everyday.
but juz had fun.
and this week's rather a busy week for me.
but i enjoyed it a lot.

anyway juz another short update i'm gonna post.
memories of the past suddenly came back.
okays bahs.
got gd got bad.
but not so bad aft all.
anyway thanx frens for being so concern.
you're much appreciated.
ytd went down marina.
watched my fren's singing audition.
they did well. =)
den headed to my old old work place.
met up with manager and my gd fren farah.
chat a lil and catch up some old times with fifie, zin and boy.
miss them loads man.
anyway they're are going to be a gd help to me soon.
especially my manager.
hope to see him soon soon SOON!

den decided to left my grp of frens and head home with farah.
met up with khairi on the way at the mrt station.
had a long long chat but fruitful one.
miss old band times ~ aWw~

supposingly lesson suppose to start at 8am today.
left my hse at almost 7.40am.
waited for the freaking long bus and when it arrived.
2 99 buses and 1 185 bus came tgt at the same time.
no wonder so long.
den the traffic was totally cui.
so damn freaking long.
jammed all the way from chevrons to clementi.
took ard almost half an hour to reach clementi.
checked the time again when i arrvied at clementi.
it was 8.30am.
changed bus and reached sch at 9am.
totally late for an hour lo.
hahahs stupid traffic.
anyway had a freaking long day.
ended lessons at 5pm.
so kind of totally shagged and now the time is 1.11AM.
better head to slp so gd nites everybody.

think. think. think. juz thinking. ~

2008-07-06T01:36:00.002+08:00

thinking?
considering?
wondering?
day-dreaming?
stone-ing?

all sorts.
juz dunno wad is wad.
maybe too tired.
confessing?
guess not.
enjoying life?
yea i wan tat.
having good times with my frens these few days.
nice people =)

update soon. tired le =/
*yaWns*

2008-07-02T11:16:00.005+08:00

woo~ it's gonna be a long update today.

got so much to say abt. =)

last bring the time back to friday first.

27th june(fri)

it was terrence's (21st) and jason's (20th) bday.

had a celebration out with a lot of people.

mostly all is noe from camp one.

drove all the way from sch to raffles city.

and had our dinner at shokudo japanese restaurant.

aft eating session.

was cutting cake session.
den headed to boat quay.

to mind's cafe.

played some games there and was rather late alr.

it was ard 12 plus to 1 i think.

den headed back.

it was a fun day though =)

left to right(richard,terrence,irene,me)

din have the chance to take with the other bday boy.

so dun have his photo here =X

gomen neh! =/

28th june(sat)

it was a fun day.

went to work.
den aft tat waited till 10.

den headed for movie session at cine.

caught the movie "don't mess with the Zohan".

with my wonderful colleagues.

show starts at 11.45.

so we took our time to went down.

show ended at ard 1 plus to 2 i think.

dun quite rmb.

show was rather okay.

rate it 7/10.

juz another lame and laughter show.

den headed home aft tat.
home trip was fun.

hahahs fast and shiok. =)

29th june(sun)

once again went to work place.

while waiting for clarus to finish with his appt.

some of us went to eat kfc first.

den so coincidentally.

saw my lecturer there.

MR YEO chor lee.

hahash he's with his family.

den headed to bukit batok for k session.

woo~ stayed from 8plus till 1am.
shiok.

long and powful!~~~

den cabbed home at 1 plus.

tired but wonderful day. =)

30th june(mon)

went sch for lesson.

a new week ahead.

2nd week of sch.
ended lesson at 3pm.

but went to help my classmates with practical.

den met pat for movie.

aft so long we din contact.

maybe for almost a yr or so.

we were both rather sick that day.
hahahs both having sore throat.

caught the movie "wanted" at jp.

not really interesting.

but the graphics were powful~

the drifting of cars and the gun shot.

rate it 8/10.

den headed for dinner.

kfc when we were having sore throat.

very smart! ~~

wanted to head to library to slack.

but while walking there halfway.

it rained! so sway.

muz be becos of him.
wahahahs =X

so headed home instead. =)

1st july(tues)

as usual went to sch for the 2 hrs lesson.

10 to 12pm.

den wanted to head to panjang for bball session.

but powful frens were only free at 4.

so went to beauty world to play pool first.

4 rounds and it was a draw.

hahahs den headed opposite for prata session.

aft which went to panjang plaza mac to do some hwk.
finishes ard 3 plus and headed for bball.

long hours played.

but powful day.

powful players.

played till so powful.

din noe clarus played so well and shifu too.

woo~ POWDERFUL!!!!~

waahhahas =X

aft their dinner i head home for my dinner =)

tired and aching day.

aft so long nv exercise already.

weak weak WEAK~ liao.

mood: happy. powful. wonderful. enjoyable. GREAT! =)

2008-06-26T00:17:00.003+08:00

something i find rather true abt me which i wanna share with people reading my blog.
even if there's no one reading.
i also dun mind posting.
it's a lil long la.
but truely describe me for who i am.
from one of the mails tat my fren send me. =)

LIBRA WOMAN

Libra woman mostly has an egg oval facial shape. She has a nice smoothskinand a good figure. She will spent so much efforts to keep her skin clean andpretty. She can be easily allergy to cosmetic and make up, but taken care ofher face and avoid wrinkle is her hobby. She is good at it and tend to lookyounger than her age.

She can be very naughty like a little boy, but yet fully 100% woman. Shelooks nice in either Jean or night gown. She thinks woman is equal to man.Sometimes she can think faster than you, but she will not leave you farbehind. She will try not to make you feel like you are competed or defeatedin any games she plays with you even she is winning.

She is a little flirt even she has no idea what she wants. She can notdecide what to do, and what not to do, so she can not set her schedule verywell in all cases.

She is gifted with how to dress, and how to match her dress. Shelikes todress in black and wear perfume. She likes a mild flowery scent.

In any argument, she can really argue. She can argue for hours, and mostlywin the argument. If it is not a serious argument, she could argue and oncea while give you a smile also. She will make a good politician, because shecan tell which party will win the election.

She always has a good reasons ,even she likes to contradict herself. She cannot decide what is right and wrong for her, because everything has a goodside and a bad side. Woman in other Zodiac might not care what other peoplethink, but Libra woman care what other people ,or what you feel as much asher own feeling.

She can adjust to her environment very well, so at work she will be at theladder up. She likes team work in doing things. If you ask her for help oradvice, she will help youexcept if she does not like your guts. She canchange you and make you think you change by yourself without her influence.

Good side of being with Libra woman are she never interfere with yourprivacy. She will not make you loose face in front of your friends. Even shecares about how much money she has left his her bank account, she will neverforget to let you know how much she cares for you.

She think taken care of the house is a woman job and she can do it well. Butif you expect a Libra woman to fear you, then you are wrong. She is a strongwoman even she looks at you with that sweet innocent pairs of baby's looksand may loose you (let you win) in a few poker games.

If she is the one you are after, then go step by step. The best way is usingher friends introducing you to her. Do not make her feel or treat her like abubblehead. You have to move forward toward her with confident and secure.Show her that you are a kind , polite and a real gentleman. Be a slow handor else you might get smack!

2008-06-24T00:13:00.002+08:00

okays juz a short update today.
start of the new term already.
first day of sch today.
felt so restless and tired though.
anyway was rather a long day today.
get back 2 papers already.
acda and del.
scored average which was kind of expected.
becos i missed out lessons for 2 weeks.
den aft sch went for np band practice.
rather long and draggy session.
but okays bahs.
everything is still going on okay.
nth else for the day.
EXCEPT MY ASSIGNMENT DUE!!!!!
ACDA ON SAT (28th June)
DEL ON THURS (26th June)

22nd June (sun)
went out for movie.
caught the movie "Get Smart".
a very interesting, nice, funny show.
rated it 9/10.
fabulous show.
really cannot missed it okay frens?
MUZ MUZ MUZ GO WATCH!
highly recommended. hahah =X
enjoyed my day out =)

pics uploaded on ruoxuan's bday

kc,me,rx,kris,mj!

kc,me,mj! loves!

kc,me,jx,kris,mj!

me and rx! loves and huggs!

2008-06-22T13:55:00.004+08:00

hmmm this few days. dunno why so happy. mayb is becos the frens ard me that make me so happy and made my day so wonderful. anyway let's recall wad i did bahs. anyway i'm still waiting for photos taken on RUOXUAN's BDAY!!! hahahs. =X *hint hint*

19th june(fri)

hmmm did plainly nth.
i think i slack at home the whole day and watch tv bahs.

hmmms and of course i tried to do my assignments.

but to no help at all.

becos i did not noe how to do.

so in the end.

SLACK! again. hahahs

20th june(sat)

went out today.

noe a lot of new frens.

and of course see a few of my "used" to be colleagues.

hahahs it was a nice meet up.

so coincidence eh.

anyway had a wonderful session.

and atmosphere was very warm and so close tgt.

so great.

i nv regret knowing them.

LOVES!

more meet up soon.

21st june(sun)

today is yida's 19th bday.

woo~ one yr older already.

so sad ytd cant stay over to celebrate with him.

missed out a chance for gathering.

but nvm.

there will be more chances in the future.

anyway today i'm going out again.

although it's my last day of the holiday.

and tmr it's gonna be a new term.

juz wanna enjoy myself to the max first.

before i go back sch to finish my assignments and start sch.

hmmm although i'm worrying abt my assignments everyday.

but still enjoy is enjoy.

so see how bahs.

PLAY, ENJOY, HAVE FUN!

loves and hugs to everyone i noe!

thanx thanx for all the help =)

some random photos i took recently.

2008-06-19T13:52:00.003+08:00

today is ruo xuan's bday. juz to say

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO RUOXUAN!

anyway if she cant see it here it's okay. i'm going to attend her bday celebration at her chalet later on at pasir ris. woo~ so far from my hse. but still i'm going. dun wish to disappoint her. anyway it's also a good time to meet up with my ex- colleagues and especially the bday gal today. becos I MISS HER LOADS!!!!!!!!!!

hwk is going to due soon yet i've finish any of the assignments.
woop! =X
so bad gal yea? hahahs
cause i dunno how to do so hahahs so cannot blame.
better get started soon cause when sch starts means i have lesser time to do.

how i wish tat money could drop from the sky. but of course tat kind of thinking would nv happen la. hahahs anyway it's juz some thghts tat went through my mind abt money. hahahs juz hope tat one day i could earn a lot of money so that my parents can have a better life and dun need to work so hard.

anyway happy to noe some new frens. of course. they are very friendly and all ard my age people. so nice people can. and helpful too. will always rmb them and keep in contact with them in future de. they're a bunch of when called. will always say yes to any meetings as from wad i noe abt them so far. of course there are more to find out when time goes by but i wont regret knowing them de. =) there are more to go. . . . . .

life's simple and easy now. which is gd. juz wan to stay on this way for long. no worries at all. juz worrying abt money. hahahs jking. okays la. living quite well now. nth to worry abt actually juz thinking of when to start work soon. becos i wan to earn my own pocket money again and so i got spare money to use. hahahss and of course i wan to enjoy nice movies. and shopping. and last but not least. FOOD!!!! my desire to eat all the food i wan! which of course i cant do it now. but SOON OKAYS?!!! so dun come and tempt me. becos i wont be tempted by u guys. wahahahahs ! =X

2008-06-15T13:20:00.002+08:00

hmmms let's recall wad i've been doing these few days. think nth bahs staying at home and slack the whole time. cant work. no money coming in but money going out more and more often. so sianz. how how how?

anyway it's been told accurately that my life's not been going very well. and it seems so true tat everything going through now was so accurate. so i've made up a decision. which i will not think so much anymore. and not going to consider so much of anything anymore cause it will only make my life worst. think too much no gd. i'm going to start a new beginning again. juz lyk a new born baby.

had a great day ytd. met fun people ard and gd environment. i'll be looking forward to it each day and be a happy and contented gal. more info abt it will be told later. now i'll be looking forward to it each day and gaining new experiences.

at least maybe for the next week of holidays i would have something to do other than slacking at home or doing my holiday assignments. talking abut holiday assignments, ahahhas i haven done any yet! better start doing now. if not cannot complete before sch starts next next week. really wondering how have all my frens been. as in those i used to kept close contact with during sec sch times. kind of miss them dunnoif they miss me not. maybe not bah =/

life depends on ones hands. it's whether u decide to do it or not. so i wont regret for my decision but look forward to more things in future. i guess more things will be coming up in my life soon and i hope i can do a gd job in facing these challenges and succeed in it. gambate! =)

2008-06-06T20:44:00.004+08:00

today is the end of the ct. felt so relief aft everything ended. out of 4 papers i did. i think acda and foop was the hardest. din noe wad the question was trying to ask. it's juz so hard to do. but nvm so long i can pass i'm quite elated already as i've been missing sch for 2 weeks before the ct starts. so tried my best to catch up wadeva i missed.

okays. 2 weeks of holiday. wad shld i do? hmmms plans plans plans?? so sianz. as i'm not in gd health now. i couldnt get back to work at this moment at all. anyway i was planning to change an environment in working. planning to get some better jobs and out of the current industry i'm doing. anyone got lobangs to intro? hahahs.

anyway i miss eating gd food. especially those that i wanna eat are out of my reach now. I CANT EAT!! oh my tian! how long muz i still endure? hmmms. so sadd =/. 3 weeks already. hmmms long way to go. i'm lyk suffering throughout this unpleasant year. so tough and so much hardship and heavy price to pay. i'm so tired of everything. i juz wan a plain and simple life. missing out a lot of things that i shld enjoy with frens. having the company of chit-chatting. slacking ard and gazing into the sky. relaxing and etc.

well i'm juz having thoughts running through my mind while doing nth. sigh. i wish i could have a bunch of frens whom ask me out always. have fun and talk things out. people who are more closer to me. and life wouldnt be thinking of so many unhappy things and past that i have. life without music is purely not accepted and as for now i need more money becos i wanna take up piano lesson. which actually is my dream to play since i was young. think now still not too old to start learning though.

life's been peaceful as it all ended... simple-minded...

anyway someone vandalised my hand with his name!

2008-05-31T01:12:00.002+08:00

been attending sch for the week. wound's getting better already although i noe it's still a long way to fully recover. been always hoping i was healthy yet still this yr was not a very gd yr for me ever since it started happening. 2 weeks of absentee was rather a hard period of time to catch up with my classmates. it was such a struggle. din noe how to go abt studying and stuffs. everything seems to be in a mess. my life seems to be in a mess no matter in wad situation. from the outside it's juz so messed up.

ct is next week. 4 papers on 4 days except tues. a tough period to go through i guess. misses out so many things during the 2 weeks. wondering how would my coming ct fare? hmmms out of 4 modules i'm only kinda confident on 2 and the other 2 i dunno how to do. it's juz so hard to understand and apply. not very confident of scoring well for this term. also i've change my way of studying i guess. i dun used to write out the notes but relying on reading most of the time. but i did it this time round. been hearing different stories about different people recently. too much of it until i felt there's prob in me too.

i felt of escaping everything from reality. i do not wan to face it. i felt so stressed up with things recently. juz feel lyk bursting out already. hmmms things getting so hard up recently. plus i'm not fully well. i felt trapped inside my own self. i cant control myself anymore. i felt so restless. hopeless. and useless now. feeling so weak both in the inside and the outside. i'm such a failure. i've nv been lyk this before. maybe i'm juz changing.

need time alone and left alone i guess...................

mood: moody and down =/

2008-05-25T12:35:00.004+08:00

hmmm this whole week nth much to blog about. it's a damn boring week. as other than going to school to submit my mc. other than tat i've been staying home for the week. cant go anywhere cause my wound is still recovering. but people who are concern. i'm better already and recovering well so thanx for concern people.

anyway staying home is the most boring thing to do. cause there's nth much better to do and i've been watching tv for the whole week. it's damn sianz cause the shows keep repeating from time to time. so bored. i really wonder how those people could endure such a living. even scv channels although i only watch a few channels. the shows are repeating itself which makes my whole week so bored and tired of staying at one. one reason was becos of that. the other reason was because maybe i'm one who lyks going out and play and not always staying at home. so it makes my life very bored. nth to do.

another thing was. a lot of things i cant eat now. as i'm still under recovering. a lot of things muz avoid. lyk my favourites seafoods, beans, fried foods, chicken and etc. all CANNOT EAT!!!! oh my tian. it juz seems so terrible and everything i eat now seems so bland. but no choice have to endure on. somethings are fated to go this way so juz hope things get better aft the bad lucks are gone.

and i'm gonna upload some pics taken quite some time before. but hadnt got the chance to upload. and also looking through my post. it's been also a long time i upload pics. so shall upload some today since i'm so free.

the temporary hostel near our sch.

the stripes! me and joze!

me and ana!!!

me and jin!!!